My old doggie's back legs gave out on her AGAIN and this time there is no fixing it
I can't get her into my truck and I can't afford (with no job, still) a huge vet bill to euthanize, so I called the animal shelter and they will help me....Sad, I can't hold her while she passes, but I am medicating her with my antianxiety meds, so she is very "calm" now and probably will be relieved to be out of her pain, her inability to play, etc
I am broken from all this loss and bad karma..I dunno what to say...
Going to do my Buddhist meditations to just disconnect from all this...leave it...walk away from it.....
I am going to miss her more than words can tell..She was/IS my best friend..I know she had a sensational loved filled life with me and I try to think on that for comfort...But like the mamalioness, I have to give up the pride member I can no longer help and focus on these 2 youngsters who need me...
I feel like my heart has turned to stone with all these losses..CANT find another job, and now this!!! I think she is "stroking" because she tries to get up and cries...
I have to go back and be with her...give her another med to calm her down....
thanks for reading me
Temple said
Oct 18, 2019
Bless you, Dear Rosie
And Bless your sweet dog.
I think I remember when you rescued her, and I know she's had a wonderful life and the best of care. And has obviously been a blessing for you.
Hugs,
Temple
DavidG said
Oct 18, 2019
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Mama )))))))))))))))))))))))
hotrod said
Oct 18, 2019
((Rose)) so sorry to read this You will con be in my prayers
mamalioness said
Oct 18, 2019
you all want to hear something??? I called them at NOON..its 830 now and they did NOT show up...I called and BEGGED them to help me (animal shelter) told them I CANT get her in my car because she is too big.....so tomorrow, I am going to have to put her on a towel or rug..DRAG her out to my SUV, HOPE I can find a male neighbor to help me get her in SUV and then I'll have to drive her to the shelter and go in and MAKE them come help us...this is SO wrong....I will never donate to them again.....BAD place, not to help someone who is trying to help her sick animal...I told them I lost my job, and this happens and I CANT help her this time..massage and meds are not touchiing this...I think it is a small stroke, or shes got nerve damage, but I touch her limbs and its like she does not feel...so I'm thinking stroke...so isn't that "NICE" ?? I have to drag her out to my SUV and take her in to help her outta this suffering............WHEN does this STOP????
mamalioness said
Oct 18, 2019
I called and REALLY told them off...said I would never forgive them for this....this old guy said that the driver is "supposedly" on his way to me...yea, we shall see.....my pooor girl!!! I even tried to check out low cost euthanisia....oh yea, $175 to START.....no job, I can't do this so I have to depend on the city and usually they come through....I will wait till 9 then its lights out....I'll have to drag her on a towel to the car, etc., and find someone around here to help me load her in the SUV.......There ARE some things that programme and any higher power one has within CANT help.....Somehow, I just have to figure out plan B if he does not show up tonight....keep her comfortable is key
hotrod said
Oct 19, 2019
((ROSE)) Prayers on the way
tiredtonite said
Oct 19, 2019
(((Rose)))) I'm so sorry. It's so painful to let go of our beloved pets. You are doing your best with what you have at this time. Your love and comfort is a lot. Today is the anniversary of the death of my dog. I was facing awful circumstances absolutely awful. My dog was a small joy, a comfort and friend during a time of so many losses. I honestly thought I couldn't take any more. I thought my brother was having his surgery today but when I texted him yesterday to wish him well, he told me he was being discharged from the hospital and things has gone fine. Either I had the date wrong or it was pushed to an earlier date. He's the last of my family. It felt like a double whammy to have his surgery and the loss of my dog be on the same date.
Also on this date some years back, I came here to the chatroom to share and be supported through the loss of my dog. Thankfully, there is no shortage of people here who understand the unconditional loving support of a pet particularly dogs. Maybe it was projection of my own feelings during tough times onto my dog but it just doesn't matter. I found comfort whether real or simply my belief. I felt my dog almost intuitively knew how I was feeling and offered closeness and comfort. I often miss that special relationship with beloved dog.
You are doing what you can to wade through these rough waters right now. The event of death in a loved one is hard to witness and harder to process. Letting go is hard. My dog died in my arms at home as I was in the process of having my home taken from me. All the state of the art veterinary care was not going to change that outcome for my dog or my heartbreak concerning the loss of a gentle creature who was such a gift. I look back with gratitude today. My dog had done all they were meant to do. Yes, as you said had "a sensational, love filled life." Sending prayers for you and for your dog as you surrender the pain and let go. ((((((((((Rose))))))))))))))) TT
Maresie888 said
Oct 19, 2019
I spent $2K on vet Bill's when I did not have it
I understand completely
The humane society which is where I took my pets does not have a fund for that. They need one
Whatever you did this is not an easy task. Even if you had the money and the help it would not be an easy task
Go.easy on yourself
Be kind. Be very very kind to yourself
Maresie
mamalioness said
Oct 22, 2019
Thanks my friends for you support and love...I just love this site..soo many critter lovers...makes my heart feel less heavy now....I decided that I want to focus on these 2 youngsters that I have , money is REEEL tight and to rescue another would be a huge burden, but I CAN volunteer at the shelter...I loved doing it and I heard they are sloooowly starting to do the volunteer thing again....so I am going to bring them some towels I can find in the thrift shops because surgery room always needs towels, and I am going to offer to volunteer...that way I can visit and walk the pets who are between homes and help potential adopters find their forever love
tiredtonite said
Oct 23, 2019
(((Rose)))) such a beautiful way to celebrate your dog's life. TT
mamalioness said
Oct 23, 2019
Hey TT, I just re-read your posts and they are beautiful. I really do believe that my fat girl was preparing me for her death coming up because she began to back off a little bit from me and let the puppies take front stage so to speak because I really believe she knew that she was going and she wanted me to be able to be more comfortable with it if that is possible, but I really think that she was letting the puppies take me over because she knew that she was leaving us. She began to detach a few months ago open till then, she would insist on lying near me and even though these two robust youngsters would get pushy about being near me too, fat girl held her post. This last few months though she began to defer to the puppies and began to take a backseat, not withholding her love and affection for me but preparing me in the letting go process that she knew was coming up. On her Last day, she wanted to stay in the guestroom and really showed me that it was time to let go, I remember We were both looking in each others eyes and I rubbed my face on her snout and she told me with her eyes that it was time for her to go back home. She taught these puppies everything she knew and she did a good job because they are very protective over me and they are very good little companions. I say little, they weigh about 60 to 65 pounds. But she weighed about 85 pounds. I just know that she was trying to help me detach and let go by distancing herself the way she did. Today is a quiet day. Puppies had their baths and their playtime outside. I will carry-on, of coarse, but I will never completely get over losing this loving beloved pet and friend. When I go to the happy place I will see her again.
tiredtonite said
Oct 24, 2019
((((Rose))))))) I believe it. They're such beautiful and giving creatures. Yes, the others need your love and care. Their affection can be a comfort. You're a little family and you're going through this together. T
Maresie888 said
Oct 25, 2019
I would love to have more pets 2 dogs are easier than one. When I was sharing a house the owner had two dogs. I never had to think my dog being lonely. They had their whole routine of things they did every day
I would be lost without my dog. He is huge over 100 pounds but ge is such a huge emotional.support to me.
I know it is very hard to lose them. I also know what it takes to really take care of them
I.sn glad you are giving yourself emotional.soace
My bank balance has gone back up to what it needs to be. Keeping it there is another matter
I am trying hard to detach about some of the workplace issues I have. I have always had them
There will always be issues
Every year some of them get easier to manage. The good thing is I am no longer engulfed by them. I have boundaries.
Maresie
mamalioness said
Oct 25, 2019
hey Maresie...yea, I love the minimum---2 dog house so they get to "hang out" while I am at work...even a kitty for companionship, but I don't have any more kitties....Actually since I can do my own vet tech stuff, these girls are not that expensive...I calibrate my own heartworm medicine..been doing it for years and its very affective...same as the expensive chewables.....I get the 1% that they use for sheep and pigs, and I calibrate per the dog's weight.....mix it with veg oil or gatoraide , they love drinking out of my syringe.........I have my one 2x per mo. client and my little one , every other month if I am lucky....going to do a recovery mate's books out of the house MAYBE...I hope so...definitely going to do his taxes....so yea, I am just ODAT and give it to HP, then visualize it already delivered to me and feel the gratitude that I am delivered......thats all I can do...send out the energy to universe, keep my ads going, network me...dunno what else to do and oh yea, maintain the boundaries with folks who try to use me on the phone for free advise when you know they are not going to contract with me.........
My old doggie's back legs gave out on her AGAIN and this time there is no fixing it
I can't get her into my truck and I can't afford (with no job, still) a huge vet bill to euthanize, so I called the animal shelter and they will help me....Sad, I can't hold her while she passes, but I am medicating her with my antianxiety meds, so she is very "calm" now and probably will be relieved to be out of her pain, her inability to play, etc
I am broken from all this loss and bad karma..I dunno what to say...
Going to do my Buddhist meditations to just disconnect from all this...leave it...walk away from it.....
I am going to miss her more than words can tell..She was/IS my best friend..I know she had a sensational loved filled life with me and I try to think on that for comfort...But like the mamalioness, I have to give up the pride member I can no longer help and focus on these 2 youngsters who need me...
I feel like my heart has turned to stone with all these losses..CANT find another job, and now this!!! I think she is "stroking" because she tries to get up and cries...
I have to go back and be with her...give her another med to calm her down....
thanks for reading me
And Bless your sweet dog.
I think I remember when you rescued her, and I know she's had a wonderful life and the best of care. And has obviously been a blessing for you.
Hugs,
Temple
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Mama )))))))))))))))))))))))
(((Rose)))) I'm so sorry. It's so painful to let go of our beloved pets. You are doing your best with what you have at this time. Your love and comfort is a lot. Today is the anniversary of the death of my dog. I was facing awful circumstances absolutely awful. My dog was a small joy, a comfort and friend during a time of so many losses. I honestly thought I couldn't take any more. I thought my brother was having his surgery today but when I texted him yesterday to wish him well, he told me he was being discharged from the hospital and things has gone fine. Either I had the date wrong or it was pushed to an earlier date. He's the last of my family. It felt like a double whammy to have his surgery and the loss of my dog be on the same date.
Also on this date some years back, I came here to the chatroom to share and be supported through the loss of my dog. Thankfully, there is no shortage of people here who understand the unconditional loving support of a pet particularly dogs. Maybe it was projection of my own feelings during tough times onto my dog but it just doesn't matter. I found comfort whether real or simply my belief. I felt my dog almost intuitively knew how I was feeling and offered closeness and comfort. I often miss that special relationship with beloved dog.
You are doing what you can to wade through these rough waters right now. The event of death in a loved one is hard to witness and harder to process. Letting go is hard. My dog died in my arms at home as I was in the process of having my home taken from me. All the state of the art veterinary care was not going to change that outcome for my dog or my heartbreak concerning the loss of a gentle creature who was such a gift. I look back with gratitude today. My dog had done all they were meant to do. Yes, as you said had "a sensational, love filled life." Sending prayers for you and for your dog as you surrender the pain and let go. ((((((((((Rose))))))))))))))) TT
(((Rose)))) such a beautiful way to celebrate your dog's life. TT
((((Rose))))))) I believe it. They're such beautiful and giving creatures. Yes, the others need your love and care. Their affection can be a comfort. You're a little family and you're going through this together. T