I could not ask for a day like today w/o praising my God! I am so grateful. Ordinary fits on a day where there is no pressure! I thought the day would be so difficult because of the nature of my involvement on a particular study. The topic was anger. One of the 12steppers was of the group. It wasn't Al anon at all. It was a different type of group. Anyhow, the topic was anger. This particular lady was having a major problem w/ forgiveness. I felt a little like she could get into acceptance if nothing else. That is all I can say about that. I don't want to take her inventory.
As the day rolls on, I look forward to another decent night's sleep. I relish the opportunity to get the sleep I need . I am one of those insomniacs out there who does enjoy sleep except when is interrupted. I guess I kind of value my needs over someone else's. I will forgive myself in advance for being a little difficult. I have been trying & succeeding to forgive myself if no one else. Forgiveness is definitely an action step. I think I will look up more readings on forgiveness & anger. They are both difficult for me. Next week it will be on rejection. I sure am guilty of rejection. It goes both ways. I have been rejected probably as much as I have rejected men from my past. I look at my relationship inventory & find names that I didn't realize sometimes even mattered. I am guilty as charged. I loved & lost so many due to my self-centered fear.
I didn't intend on writing a lot. I got on another tangent!
Love you all!
Kathleen
a4l said
Aug 7, 2019
Love back to you too Kathleen. <3
Iamhere said
Aug 8, 2019
Love back to you and for all MIP family!! I always like to hear how recovery works us when we are ready for more lessons/learning. (((hugs)))
I could not ask for a day like today w/o praising my God! I am so grateful. Ordinary fits on a day where there is no pressure! I thought the day would be so difficult because of the nature of my involvement on a particular study. The topic was anger. One of the 12steppers was of the group. It wasn't Al anon at all. It was a different type of group. Anyhow, the topic was anger. This particular lady was having a major problem w/ forgiveness. I felt a little like she could get into acceptance if nothing else. That is all I can say about that. I don't want to take her inventory.
As the day rolls on, I look forward to another decent night's sleep. I relish the opportunity to get the sleep I need . I am one of those insomniacs out there who does enjoy sleep except when is interrupted. I guess I kind of value my needs over someone else's. I will forgive myself in advance for being a little difficult. I have been trying & succeeding to forgive myself if no one else. Forgiveness is definitely an action step. I think I will look up more readings on forgiveness & anger. They are both difficult for me. Next week it will be on rejection. I sure am guilty of rejection. It goes both ways. I have been rejected probably as much as I have rejected men from my past. I look at my relationship inventory & find names that I didn't realize sometimes even mattered. I am guilty as charged. I loved & lost so many due to my self-centered fear.
I didn't intend on writing a lot. I got on another tangent!
Love you all!
Kathleen