I haven't been on here in quite awhile. At least for me. I am actually having a hard time writing this. I am in a recovery place that I have not been to in years. I am recovering from a near breakdown. I was totally worried & almost went to the hospital for my condition but it has been over to weeks since I felt the pressure. I went to see my mom as I have already mentioned. I saw her on her 76th birthday. It was good but the atmosphere made me uncomfortable. I have not been in an assisted living situation except the time that I went to see her before. Anyway, I gave her pink roses, gifts & we played dominoes & another game. My hubby made her a cake. The thing is is that I have been anxious about a lot of things & that was one of the biggest. So, I was under stress for a lot of other things as well. My anxiety got a hold of me & I crashed when I got home that evening. The ride was almost torture. We traveled over 200 miles to see her. Anyhow, as I got home I felt a sense of loss. I didn't want to be the way I was. A lot of people were asking about my mom & in the meantime, I felt like why aren't they asking me. Poor me I guess. I didn't want to be a part of society at all. I am taking great strides now. It takes a lot & I have been here before. I am grateful for the recovery process. No matter how down I feel I can get up. I have this saying I think it goes like this: If you have something bothering you look up! I need that right now. My HP has always been there for me, I just moved. I am so grateful that some of you know that what I am going through. I need similarities not differences.
I will continue to update my story as it comes to me. I am at a public library. It is one of the only ways I can get on here now. I used to have a smart phone that I used & my tablet. I just don't want to get caught up w/ drama. I mean that some of the social media is not necessary now for my recovery.
I hope this makes sense. Feedback is appreciated.
Kathleen
hotrod said
Jun 3, 2019
((Kathleen))) I missed you and can so understand your concerns. Love that you made the effort to visit your mom and brought a tasty home made cake
please keep posting
Iamhere said
Jun 3, 2019
(((Kathleen))) - I too have missed you and glad to hear that you are past your mom's birthday! I love the idea of looking up when feeling down - keep doing you and keep coming back!
Temple said
Jun 5, 2019
Bless your heart, Kathleen
You sound so positive and I think you have cone a very long way I can see measurable good results from the hard work you have done.
I read something once that said what we call a breakdown is often more of a breaking "up." A reorganization of the psyche, and that actually it can be viewed as a positive. I wonder if it is a form of acceptance, a letting go, a step in the right direction of seeking more help from HP, allowing help from other people as well.
I haven't been on here in quite awhile. At least for me. I am actually having a hard time writing this. I am in a recovery place that I have not been to in years. I am recovering from a near breakdown. I was totally worried & almost went to the hospital for my condition but it has been over to weeks since I felt the pressure. I went to see my mom as I have already mentioned. I saw her on her 76th birthday. It was good but the atmosphere made me uncomfortable. I have not been in an assisted living situation except the time that I went to see her before. Anyway, I gave her pink roses, gifts & we played dominoes & another game. My hubby made her a cake. The thing is is that I have been anxious about a lot of things & that was one of the biggest. So, I was under stress for a lot of other things as well. My anxiety got a hold of me & I crashed when I got home that evening. The ride was almost torture. We traveled over 200 miles to see her. Anyhow, as I got home I felt a sense of loss. I didn't want to be the way I was. A lot of people were asking about my mom & in the meantime, I felt like why aren't they asking me. Poor me I guess. I didn't want to be a part of society at all. I am taking great strides now. It takes a lot & I have been here before. I am grateful for the recovery process. No matter how down I feel I can get up. I have this saying I think it goes like this: If you have something bothering you look up! I need that right now. My HP has always been there for me, I just moved. I am so grateful that some of you know that what I am going through. I need similarities not differences.
I will continue to update my story as it comes to me. I am at a public library. It is one of the only ways I can get on here now. I used to have a smart phone that I used & my tablet. I just don't want to get caught up w/ drama. I mean that some of the social media is not necessary now for my recovery.
I hope this makes sense. Feedback is appreciated.
Kathleen
please keep posting
You sound so positive and I think you have cone a very long way I can see measurable good results from the hard work you have done.
I read something once that said what we call a breakdown is often more of a breaking "up." A reorganization of the psyche, and that actually it can be viewed as a positive. I wonder if it is a form of acceptance, a letting go, a step in the right direction of seeking more help from HP, allowing help from other people as well.
Good for you, in any case.
Temple