its been a while

I don't even know where to start except I have been on a "house deep fixing up"  cleaning, and I mean DEEP cleaning, painting, upgrading lil things here and there and even some larger things...The place looks so much cleaner, happier and updated, LOL...yea, I know how to scrub down stuff and paint and save money being a DIY type person...The only thing I can't do is my ceiling patch that needs replace and my handyman will get that...upgrades for me was fun as I did it ALL in thrift shops except for the new storm and main doors in the front of house....my contractor/friend used his contractors discount priveleges to get me some really heavy duty and good doors....I am having fun: Working myself to death, but having FUN doing it...tossed out carloads of just STUFF I didn't need anymore...either donations or the dumpster, but I can FIND stuff now...and it makes ME happy about being ME....

Also, high on the front burner is advertising my bookkeeping business because I want SO bad to quit the every other Wed. client who is so nasty there were rats and you know rats doo doo all over the place..these people are unreal and very inconsiderate of me and my time , so I have been busy, not just taking this lying down, but actively advertising, networking because I have to work...I got one part timer, but need another larger client,

so , yea, I've been working my program in a different way, but working it...mostly practicing mindfulness and meditations, letting go, connecting to my higher self, visualizations of things I want better for me, doing steps regularly, (I think they, happy to say, are hard wired in me)  so yea, just haven't been on the boards..

I really didn't think I had much to say here because I distanced myself from my alkies, detached with love, but did detach, big time and i take care of me and prioritize myself w/out being selfish..I used to think taking care of my needs first was selfish, but it is not..Yes, I care about my others and I am kind to all, however I don't "give or do till it hurts"  I do it from the heart IF I have it to give or do...I don't take other people's storms personally anymore, but if one is having a "bad hair" day, I can NOT allow myself to be treated badly, I can retreat, seek shelter, distance till I feel safe enough to reach out..I let them figure out their own problems but I can be supportive and kind and encouraging w/out absorbing their issues  (being tested with this a bit but doing fine with it)

anyway, I do hope all is well with you all..Some of you remember me, some may not, but whether we know each other or share with each other or not, I do send out to all----- peace and love and all the good energy

((((Betty))))) and ((((Andromeda)))))  now how can I resist to lovely spirits saying they wish me to come back more???? I missed you guys...Really, Its been a buzzzzzy time for me of late....Funny!!! tonight i was cleaning out my book shelves and sorting  "ok what do I bring to the thrift shop to donate?? what do I keep"  there was never any ??? about my beloved recovery books...The books I got into with my first sponsor when he was leading me  to this wonderful program which I was just "SURE" could not help a mess like me...BOY am I glad to have been wrong...

I'm just lightening my load , as I let my advertising "seeds" take root, because at SOME point, I hope to downsize into a bit smaller and cheaper of a place, maybe a newer mobile home on a bit of property for my dogs and me to live more simply and peacefully....I just listen to my inner voice and go accordingly...slowly , I am losing my fears of not being able to take care of me..

Thank you ladies for the wonderful welcome back.....loving and grateful hugs

   Nice to see you here, Rosie...

                                              same old crowd, with a fair few newcomers, as well...  ...