I am concerned about my present condition. I feel stress upon stress! When I am having a good day, something trips me up! I really can't type all that I have to say! Just know this I am living minute to minute. I am so confused & feel lost. Prayers needed. I am hanging sometimes by a thread!
Jerry F said
Mar 20, 2018
((((Kath)))) you know that you have family here that abides with you and with the assurances that program works when we work it. You can and will get thru it. Rely on the past experiences where you have come thru before.
Sending grace and mercy, hope and love. ((((hugs))))
Stan1 said
Mar 20, 2018
(((Hoot Nanny))) Hopefully the first day of spring will lift your spirits. I try to walk daily even though it's harder when the weather is in the same gloomy mood as me. This morning I noticed the daffodils and hyacinths popping through the remnants of last week's snow. Thankful winter is pretty much over and it will soon time to get out in the garden and plant. Of course there will be weeds to but that's okay I won't have to wear a bunch of heavy clothes and look like a Yeti till next winter. Hope your day gets brighter.
Iamhere said
Mar 20, 2018
Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way Kathleen. Know that we're here for you any way we can be...(((Hugs)))
hotrod said
Mar 20, 2018
((Kathleen)) you are not alone. Sending positive thoughts and prayers.
Bo said
Mar 20, 2018
Sending positive thoughts, prayers and wishes.
Call your sponsor.
All the best.
Aline said
Mar 20, 2018
Hugs, ((((HN)))), I'm really sorry you're feeling so stressed. I have a lot of experience with prolonged and intense stress, so I really feel for you, it is awful. Something my sponsor says comes to mind, that there are conditions that our program alone can't solve and may require additional professional or other help. Just a thought, something I've been thinking about too regarding some of my issues. This morning was interesting for me, because, after waking up from a stupid work-related nightmare the first thoughts that popped into my head were: "Concentrate on what is fixed (good), not on what is broken." and "God is the director", me just playing my part and not in control of the "play". I kept in my mind (and on a note on my phone!) these thoughts all day and they are truly wonderful and helped me to have a much more positive and productive day than the few before. I hadn't noticed before how useful these thoughts can be, although I've read at least the first one quite a few times before. Keep coming back!
wp said
Mar 20, 2018
Hello Hoot Nanny, Nice to 'see' you again. Rest assured you're not alone and I pray you will find tools to help alleviate your stress.
Recently I resorted back to an al anon book that has been in my drawer for some years, called Daily Affirmations for acoa's. The page I turned to today ended with this: I will talk respectfully to myself today. I will notice all of my attributes and I will be grounded in healthy directions. I lead myself to serenity, and I share my serenity with others.
Yes, it's a tall order, but something to work on perhaps. Sometimes we can't do these things by ourselves. I'm glad you shared with us.
WP
Hoot Nanny said
Mar 22, 2018
Well as you can see I got through another few days. Time isn't very clear these days. I guess I am just going to have to go through it before I can get through it.
One day at a time. Gratitude, gratitude gratitude! I am so humbled as I go through this day. I have so many things to be grateful for. I look at each day today as a new beginning; another start. I have been looking at the Just for Today pamphlet. It makes so much sense. I don't have to tackle everything in one day. I need to be quiet & listen to that small voice inside of me that says slow down & focus what is important at the moment. The days do seem long but I still have moments of clarity & sometimes laughter or tears but I am letting go of so much stress.
I need to go to a meeting & call my sponsor as suggested. I am not going to be able to go to a meeting yet. Don't drive, no local meetings, etc. I guess these might be excuses. Just gonna have to spend time on here. I am so limited. I can actually type a post w/o wondering if I am getting it right.
I don't want to ramble. I just want everyone to know that I haven't lost it but have fears. I will remember to say " how important is it?"
Sometimes I have to remember to ask myself if I am hungry angry lonely or tired? When these things creep up I have to not got to a complete HALT!
There is so much to say but I am forgetting again. I hope this doesn't last. I pray for myself & for guidance. I never want to lose my faith.
Maybe next time I reply to any post I will think better so I can post something else that might be helpful to someone. I want to be of service even if I have to do it from here. But I can't give away something I don't have & right now, I can only be there totally for me.
Thanks for being a part of my recovery.
Oh & yes I feel so much better in the springtime.
Iamhere said
Mar 22, 2018
(((Kathleen))) - great to see you stop back by....you've been on my mind and in my thoughts and prayers! All that you write makes perfect sense to me.....keep doing 'it' one day at a time!
Sorry to hear about your stress. I can put myself into some bad spaces with stress. I have to slow down a lot i break things down to tasks like cleaning the house small tasks every day
The stress of being around an alcoholic is very.difficult.
I believe it is all consuming For me personally I was a stress magnet. Whatever issue someone had I thought I was born to.fix it Of course I rationalized that I needed to f8x it in order not to suffer the consequences
((((Kath)))) you know that you have family here that abides with you and with the assurances that program works when we work it. You can and will get thru it. Rely on the past experiences where you have come thru before.
Sending grace and mercy, hope and love. ((((hugs))))
Call your sponsor.
All the best.
Recently I resorted back to an al anon book that has been in my drawer for some years, called Daily Affirmations for acoa's. The page I turned to today ended with this: I will talk respectfully to myself today. I will notice all of my attributes and I will be grounded in healthy directions. I lead myself to serenity, and I share my serenity with others.
Yes, it's a tall order, but something to work on perhaps. Sometimes we can't do these things by ourselves. I'm glad you shared with us.
WP
Well as you can see I got through another few days. Time isn't very clear these days. I guess I am just going to have to go through it before I can get through it.
One day at a time. Gratitude, gratitude gratitude! I am so humbled as I go through this day. I have so many things to be grateful for. I look at each day today as a new beginning; another start. I have been looking at the Just for Today pamphlet. It makes so much sense. I don't have to tackle everything in one day. I need to be quiet & listen to that small voice inside of me that says slow down & focus what is important at the moment. The days do seem long but I still have moments of clarity & sometimes laughter or tears but I am letting go of so much stress.
I need to go to a meeting & call my sponsor as suggested. I am not going to be able to go to a meeting yet. Don't drive, no local meetings, etc. I guess these might be excuses. Just gonna have to spend time on here. I am so limited. I can actually type a post w/o wondering if I am getting it right.
I don't want to ramble. I just want everyone to know that I haven't lost it but have fears. I will remember to say " how important is it?"
Sometimes I have to remember to ask myself if I am hungry angry lonely or tired? When these things creep up I have to not got to a complete HALT!
There is so much to say but I am forgetting again. I hope this doesn't last. I pray for myself & for guidance. I never want to lose my faith.
Maybe next time I reply to any post I will think better so I can post something else that might be helpful to someone. I want to be of service even if I have to do it from here. But I can't give away something I don't have & right now, I can only be there totally for me.
Thanks for being a part of my recovery.
Oh & yes I feel so much better in the springtime.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((( Nanny... ))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Sorry to hear about your stress. I can put myself into some bad spaces with stress. I have to slow down a lot i break things down to tasks like cleaning the house small tasks every day
The stress of being around an alcoholic is very.difficult.
I believe it is all consuming For me personally I was a stress magnet. Whatever issue someone had I thought I was born to.fix it Of course I rationalized that I needed to f8x it in order not to suffer the consequences