Hi friends I just want to drop this here. I would love some help seeing this with program eyes.
We are packing up our apartment. I only have a few more days before I leave. I need to get all the stuff out. That includes my AH's stuff. I still can't talk to him so I have to make judgement calls on everything - even his stuff. I am leaning towards keeping it all for him. Part of me wants to throw it all out...
My mother is here. That is another trigger. My son is so upset by the move I can see it. He fell today and was so sad. He just wants me to hold him. I think the poor kid is at a limit for things changing in his life.
I learned that my husband wasn't able to keep the dog at the sober house he is living at - the dog has gone to a new home.
I feel like i am going out of my mind with all the things I have to think of. I have so much emotional resistance to doing this.
I wrote on my notice board let go and let gd and also easy does it. I am trying to keep focused in the now. It's not easy. I feel so alone.
Thanks for listening.
SerenityRUS said
Jan 15, 2018
You don't have to eat an elephant all in one bite. In 6 weeks my daughter became my son .. he was failing college .. hitting me financially .. AND the holidays to boot .. let's throw in his boyfriend I don't care for ugh. Oh I forgot my ex hitting me financially and his ignorance with how court works. I have a point .. lol .. I don't have to do all of this at once. I can take each situation and say first thing first .. for me that has been getting college for my kid straightened out. Second is what's the plan with mental health and tradition can't have one without the other. Third I'm not responsible for what other people understand .. that's on my ex. Now if he asks me I will give information .. if not .. not my stuff. The other stuff will work out and I don't have to deal with today. My youngest has been great however there have been hiccups there lol .. i got teachers involved and he's good. Break it down to manageable pieces. I know my kids were way more sensitive when they sensed I was struggling emotionally. What can you do to center yourself in the moment .. serenity prayer sounds awesome about now. I just encourage you to deal with what you can and figure out what is the next step after breathing. Moving is hard for me!!! Way way way hard .. having additional stress sucks rotten eggs. Big big hugs. This is a moment not forever. Can your ah's stuff be stored?? Does he have friends family there?? S ;)
Aline said
Jan 15, 2018
Hugs, (((((Annie))))), you are not alone. You really have a lot of stuff going on all at once, so I encourage you to try to be gentle with yourself. My thoughts are with you.
Iamhere said
Jan 15, 2018
(((Annie))) - I'm sending you positive thoughts and prayers. There are days where I have to go down to one moment at a time, one hour at a time, etc. Know that you are not alone!
jtpickle said
Jan 15, 2018
(((Hugs Annie))) I've been keeping up with your updates as you've posted them and although I may not have responded, you've been in my prayers. You're doing an amazing job with a very difficult situation. I can only imagine how hard it is for you to watch your son in the moment but remember you are also being strong and making decisions which will ultimately be good for him. You will continue to be in my thoughts - you are not alone!
bud said
Jan 16, 2018
Sending thoughts and prayers. "emotional resistance" can run deep because of fear. So many times I've read on these boards that the opposite of fear is love. Keep doing the next right thing and take good care of you.
Tude said
Jan 17, 2018
(((Annie))) Prayers also. I see so much strength in you, even if you cannot see it yet. Baby steps work for me, even baby steps over a simple meal I have to cook during a rough day. You are dealing with a lot right now.
Hi friends I just want to drop this here. I would love some help seeing this with program eyes.
We are packing up our apartment. I only have a few more days before I leave. I need to get all the stuff out. That includes my AH's stuff. I still can't talk to him so I have to make judgement calls on everything - even his stuff. I am leaning towards keeping it all for him. Part of me wants to throw it all out...
My mother is here. That is another trigger. My son is so upset by the move I can see it. He fell today and was so sad. He just wants me to hold him. I think the poor kid is at a limit for things changing in his life.
I learned that my husband wasn't able to keep the dog at the sober house he is living at - the dog has gone to a new home.
I feel like i am going out of my mind with all the things I have to think of. I have so much emotional resistance to doing this.
I wrote on my notice board let go and let gd and also easy does it. I am trying to keep focused in the now. It's not easy. I feel so alone.
Thanks for listening.
(((Hugs Annie))) I've been keeping up with your updates as you've posted them and although I may not have responded, you've been in my prayers. You're doing an amazing job with a very difficult situation. I can only imagine how hard it is for you to watch your son in the moment but remember you are also being strong and making decisions which will ultimately be good for him. You will continue to be in my thoughts - you are not alone!