its been a sucky year, so more then ever, I need to dig out the gratitude list to stay positive
my daughters are in good health
I and my pets are all in good health
even tho work is slower, my bills are paid and I got lots to eat in fridge and pantry
I am learning more about compassion and consideration of others..shaking off the FOO selfishness
I have the best BFF in the whole world AND she mentors me (AA member , sober for over 30 years)
Tho I wish I could retire, I can't..Not in the foreseeable future, BUT. I work for REALLY nice clients..the BEST people
thought my world would crash when Doctor retired--Got a new one (1 of her friends) and I REEELY like her..good match
weather has been kind to my utility bills
I am becoming kinder and gentler with ME when I mess up out of not being mindful..I just re-boot and try again
REEEEEELY grateful for this program!! It literally has shown me how to be a human being...PROGRESS not perfection
bettyk said
Oct 19, 2017
Hi Rose love your new pretty Avatar. I am grateful for the birds, the small animals, dogs and cats, my sister, my partner. my health , my apartment, my sponsees and my life and alanon .I think I will stop there as I can go on and on
mamalioness said
Oct 19, 2017
((((Betty))))) thanks...I just didn't feel like going to gym, so got on the full body workout machine, then grabbed the weights for some arm work...thought I would be funny and take a selfie of it....Oh you mention birds and small animals....I have a Toad friend who visits my yard EVERY night and the dogs (puppies) want to play with it...I am afraid they may hurt my "toadie" so I have to gently pick him/her up and place outside the yard gate, knowing that tomorrow night he/she will be back...I am grateful for this little "bumpy, hoppy, gentle and , to me, cute" friend who has arrived from who knows where to visit my yard...I guess when its colder, he /she will seek shelter, so I enjoy interacting with my little friend as long as it lasts......is your sister younger or older than you???? I'm glad you have a sibling....Janie is gone...and the alcoholics keep on a drinkin but I am grateful I can still love the "they" part of them and detach from their disease.....I love how you look at the nature and pets and everything lovely and nice on your grateful list....and yea, CAlifornia is burning up and I am so grateful that daughter and nieces are far enough away, they should be safe....praying for those people because I know a Lot of Californians.......soooo grateful that my loved ones are safe!!!!!!!
Lyne said
Oct 19, 2017
Good Morning-Being able to see the negatives in my life seemed to b my to go place. I had dwelled in depression and misery for most of my life, even before my A. Alanon has definately taught me a different way to live. When I find myself reverting to my old habits, my Alanon brain seems to take over and I just start thinking about my blessings. And there are really a lot! I have one dog with cancer and one dog well. I have to be willing to see the good in life, and program has taught me that. Have a wonderful day, Lyne
mamalioness said
Oct 19, 2017
Dear Lyne...I lost a dog with cancer in April, and I reeeely had to get to a place where I had to thank the universe for anything...I was hurt, angry, bitter big time and my big lab/pit got sick with something and I had to nurse her back to health....I reeeeeely had to FORCE myself to say "thank you" for the good that was still in my life, its hard at times...being grateful, I have had to force it...DIG for something to say thank you for, but when I am sincere , I can usually find something to be grateful for.....I sure hope doggie with cancer , can they put it in remission??? Sending you AND mr./mrs. fur baby healing and comfort energy....and I am glad your other dog is ok.....I have 3 dogs now...i rescued two when my pittie died...she would have wanted me to transfer my grief into rescuing another life.....sending you peace and good energy
Maresie25 said
Oct 20, 2017
I am grateful that I have boundaries and limits and can give myself some space to work through things. I am also glad I have the physical space to work through those things. I no longer share space with a bunch of people I have my own space. That alone is a blessing.
My life is far from perfect. I feel like I am moving forward rather than backwards. There is a lot of loss involved in life. Lately I feel like I have been shedding people on so many levels. I hope to get to a space where I can be willing to go out and take risks to make my life better.
Maresie
mamalioness said
Oct 20, 2017
hey Maresie, I love what you say "I no longer share space with a bunch of people I have my own space" It took me a looong time to arrive at that point....Yes, Sharing and caring is key to healthy interactions with others, but I need that special, private place called MY SPACE and I have it now, where its just me and my inner HP......and I, too, have had to shed people on many levels out of taking care of myself in a healthy way.......I , too want to "get me out there" Risk a little to achieve that better life...i am an introvert, hard to get me out there, but if I want mutual and healthy sharing and caring with others, I won't get it by staying home on my computer...Yes, online is the bulk of my recovery work, but I can trust that I work my recovery even "out in the wild" as I have discovered that the steps are now a nice habit.....thank you for your GREAT share...I related to it big time!!!!!!
WestMan said
Oct 20, 2017
Grateful I'm going to court instead of a funeral.
mamalioness said
Oct 20, 2017
WOW!! WestMan, whats up??? and yea, I think court would be the better...I've been "off" for a while and catching up...so not up to speed yet....Hope you and yours are OK....
its been a sucky year, so more then ever, I need to dig out the gratitude list to stay positive
my daughters are in good health
I and my pets are all in good health
even tho work is slower, my bills are paid and I got lots to eat in fridge and pantry
I am learning more about compassion and consideration of others..shaking off the FOO selfishness
I have the best BFF in the whole world AND she mentors me (AA member , sober for over 30 years)
Tho I wish I could retire, I can't..Not in the foreseeable future, BUT. I work for REALLY nice clients..the BEST people
thought my world would crash when Doctor retired--Got a new one (1 of her friends) and I REEELY like her..good match
weather has been kind to my utility bills
I am becoming kinder and gentler with ME when I mess up out of not being mindful..I just re-boot and try again
REEEEEELY grateful for this program!! It literally has shown me how to be a human being...PROGRESS not perfection
I am grateful that I have boundaries and limits and can give myself some space to work through things. I am also glad I have the physical space to work through those things. I no longer share space with a bunch of people I have my own space. That alone is a blessing.
My life is far from perfect. I feel like I am moving forward rather than backwards. There is a lot of loss involved in life. Lately I feel like I have been shedding people on so many levels. I hope to get to a space where I can be willing to go out and take risks to make my life better.
Maresie