Well, tomorrow is the memorial service for my sister..I have called the girls, my BFF, my cousin, and NOBODY is home and I am feeling a bit lonely, so I thought I would stop in and say hello to my recovery mates and check up on how ya'll are doing
I'm hanging in there..One day at a time..Also, I decided that I am sick of being here in TX, no family, not many friends since I got out of the "social beer and partying scene" so I am doing research on perhaps in a couple to three years, selling out, and moving to AZ near the CA border where the girls are so I will be REAL close to my BFF and closer to my girls...
Having only me to "hang out with" isn't working anymore..So maybe HP is prompting me to make a CHANGE!!!
Its going to take 2-3 years to put my plan (and I know..put it to the universe..) into affect..Right now its research..Looking on line what property prices are around Western AZ...If it is right, the universe will "smooth my way"
I want to thank you all for the support hugs and compassion shown to me during this horrid period in my life..I think too many sad things in too short of a time, happening to me broke my spirit down quite a bit..
Honest!! I find myself doing goofy things, and its hard to concentrate, my emotions are a mess..I feel like I am "half gone"...I am really clinging onto the program...ODAT and keeping the focus on me....
I know the down side of life happens, but I think what has beaten me down so badly is that I would not be over the last disaster when the next one would hit...and this last sorrow was the stick that bent me down..Thanks to program, I am not broken, but I am emotionally "bent over" Like the willow in a hurricane, just trying to go with the wind, not fight it and hope to God I keep most of my branches..
Tomorrow, I will rest and maybe , maybe go for a swim , something light, not too strenuous...Lots of self care...Hanging onto my program..
Thanks for putting up with me this past, since July 25th...I think I could use a hug and some prayers that the bad karma is over for a while...
Hugs to all...Hope you all have a good and safe weekend....Love all the posts here...I've been reading and sending good , loving energy to all of you.......
-- Edited by mamalioness on Saturday 12th of August 2017 02:13:39 AM
shrnp said
Aug 11, 2017
Sending thoughts and prayers Rose, and hugs too.
Aline said
Aug 12, 2017
Hugs, (((((((Rose)))))))), prayers your way. Glad you are here :)
_bunny_ said
Aug 12, 2017
(((Rose))) sending prayers and loving energy your way.
hotrod said
Aug 12, 2017
((Rose))) Sending positive thought and prayers out to you. I support your plan regarding moving in a few years. Keep showing up -asyou are indeed a great example
mamalioness said
Aug 12, 2017
Thank you (((((((((((((((((((((((family)))))))))))))))))) its been an awful ride, but I'm not thrown from the horse yet....I'm putting out energy that I am willing to change , even physically move, whatever it will take to end this being alone..At my age, I need to be near loved ones...I want to, when I grow old be within a decent driving distance from loved ones.....the ONE "hitch" is that I don't make enough SS and might have to work PT like I do here.....unless I make enough on this house and can "downsize" enough to "bank some $$ as I look for PT work or just make it on what I got"....And I just caught myself projecting, LOL...If this is right, all this will be a non issue.....i am putting this all to the Universal light forces ..In the meantime..."make the best of where I am at" I just don't have any close relationships here to make me want to stay....While I am still active and young/healthy, I will work...try to stash $$ in savings, cut out unnecessary spending, start cleaning out stuff I don't need or use anymore....If I do the "basic work" and put the energy out there, could be I will find where I belong in my older days.....Thanks for all the hugs and love energy.............grateful HUGSSSS back at ya'll
Well, tomorrow is the memorial service for my sister..I have called the girls, my BFF, my cousin, and NOBODY is home and I am feeling a bit lonely, so I thought I would stop in and say hello to my recovery mates and check up on how ya'll are doing
I'm hanging in there..One day at a time..Also, I decided that I am sick of being here in TX, no family, not many friends since I got out of the "social beer and partying scene" so I am doing research on perhaps in a couple to three years, selling out, and moving to AZ near the CA border where the girls are so I will be REAL close to my BFF and closer to my girls...
Having only me to "hang out with" isn't working anymore..So maybe HP is prompting me to make a CHANGE!!!
Its going to take 2-3 years to put my plan (and I know..put it to the universe..) into affect..Right now its research..Looking on line what property prices are around Western AZ...If it is right, the universe will "smooth my way"
I want to thank you all for the support hugs and compassion shown to me during this horrid period in my life..I think too many sad things in too short of a time, happening to me broke my spirit down quite a bit..
Honest!! I find myself doing goofy things, and its hard to concentrate, my emotions are a mess..I feel like I am "half gone"...I am really clinging onto the program...ODAT and keeping the focus on me....
I know the down side of life happens, but I think what has beaten me down so badly is that I would not be over the last disaster when the next one would hit...and this last sorrow was the stick that bent me down..Thanks to program, I am not broken, but I am emotionally "bent over" Like the willow in a hurricane, just trying to go with the wind, not fight it and hope to God I keep most of my branches..
Tomorrow, I will rest and maybe , maybe go for a swim , something light, not too strenuous...Lots of self care...Hanging onto my program..
Thanks for putting up with me this past, since July 25th...I think I could use a hug and some prayers that the bad karma is over for a while...
Hugs to all...Hope you all have a good and safe weekend....Love all the posts here...I've been reading and sending good , loving energy to all of you.......
-- Edited by mamalioness on Saturday 12th of August 2017 02:13:39 AM