I just have to emphasize and maybe a repeat of what Serenity 47 said.
I was barely present in my own life! All energy and thoughts were focused on saving my sons life.
I was sick too, I didn't know I couldn't do anything until I accepted my powerlessness.
I can sit back and see so clearly now my mistakes trying to fix him. Cleaning up behind him, preventing crisis.
Fear was my biggest motivator, fear he would die. I finally gave him to my HP and said let your will be done.
I had to let go. Having not being present in my own life for so many years, I now try to make amends to my other
children. And now sit and wonder who I AM.
linsc
hotrod said
Jun 4, 2017
HI Linsc I too discovered the same fact - Acceptance of my powerlessness did provide me with the ability to deal with my life with serenity, courage and wisdom. Thanks to HP and alanon I regained my sanity and self esteem.
shrnp said
Jun 4, 2017
Thank you LinSC, very good share. It is so hard to detach when it is your child. I have been trying to stay healthy, it can be so hard when you worry all the time.
Iamhere said
Jun 4, 2017
I too can relate. While we never know God's will for another person, I do know that my will is limited always. It's very hard when it's your child - that's so, so true. What a lovely, lovely share - while I work to get out of the way, I remain hopeful for what's coming next....and that is a huge difference from the 'shoe dropping anxiety' I had before!
(((Hugs))) to all!
el-cee said
Jun 5, 2017
Amazing post, thank you, I can relate fully. One other amends though - to ourselves.
I just have to emphasize and maybe a repeat of what Serenity 47 said.
I was barely present in my own life! All energy and thoughts were focused on saving my sons life.
I was sick too, I didn't know I couldn't do anything until I accepted my powerlessness.
I can sit back and see so clearly now my mistakes trying to fix him. Cleaning up behind him, preventing crisis.
Fear was my biggest motivator, fear he would die. I finally gave him to my HP and said let your will be done.
I had to let go. Having not being present in my own life for so many years, I now try to make amends to my other
children. And now sit and wonder who I AM.
linsc
(((Hugs))) to all!
Amazing post, thank you, I can relate fully. One other amends though - to ourselves.