hi Everyone, I have been struggling with the dark night of the soul after a separation and my alcoholic father passed away (he was 86)> i realize in therapy and through the steps that I did not have available caretakers and I have very low self esteem although i was very successful in many areas of my life. I have had a business, a child, saved money etc. I am feeling VERy empty right now and am looking for an experienced SPONSOR to work the steps with. I want to love myself again but each day i am attacked by "stinking thinking". I do call the phone bridge but need a sponsor with experience. I write a gratitude list, I pray, read literature and try to take good care of myself but I feel so extremely alone although I have a teenage son and a few friends here but most are married. I have close friends who do NOT live in my city. I know that God loves us all and I just do not feel this now. I need to find a way to heal. thank you for reading. xx
Sorcha said
Apr 26, 2017
Hi Charlotte22, welcome to the board. I'm sorry to read about your losses. I also went through a very dark time a few years ago after a few losses came one after the other. I'm wondering if you get to face to face alanon meetings? I don't know how I would have got through that time without the acceptance and friendship I found in the fellowship. Alcoholism is a devastating disease to the alcoholic and those close to them. I pray you find the support and comfort you deserve.
hotrod said
Apr 26, 2017
Dear Charlotte, grieving the loss of a parent is very difficult and and takes a great deal of time. Please be very gentle with yourself and know that you have been using the program in a healthy fashion.
The best place to find a sponsor is at face-to-face meetings, or if that's not possible online meetings. We hold online meetings here two times a day and it is important to connect with someone that you can identify with and feel comfortable sharing with
hi Everyone, I have been struggling with the dark night of the soul after a separation and my alcoholic father passed away (he was 86)> i realize in therapy and through the steps that I did not have available caretakers and I have very low self esteem although i was very successful in many areas of my life. I have had a business, a child, saved money etc. I am feeling VERy empty right now and am looking for an experienced SPONSOR to work the steps with. I want to love myself again but each day i am attacked by "stinking thinking". I do call the phone bridge but need a sponsor with experience. I write a gratitude list, I pray, read literature and try to take good care of myself but I feel so extremely alone although I have a teenage son and a few friends here but most are married. I have close friends who do NOT live in my city. I know that God loves us all and I just do not feel this now. I need to find a way to heal. thank you for reading. xx
Dear Charlotte, grieving the loss of a parent is very difficult and and takes a great deal of time. Please be very gentle with yourself and know that you have been using the program in a healthy fashion.
The best place to find a sponsor is at face-to-face meetings, or if that's not possible online meetings. We hold online meetings here two times a day and it is important to connect with someone that you can identify with and feel comfortable sharing with
Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.