I stumbled upon this group a year ago when I was struggling to get to face to face meetings and it's been a blessing.
I don't often post, but i regularly read and just hearing 'program speak 'is invaluable .
i thought I would officially say hi .
Ive had some years of peace due to how severe the drinking of my xah got , but now he is currently , for now, ...(dry drunk ) back on his feet and in turn back in my life , the necessary boundaries are in place but due to our child some form of contact is currently needed.
the last few days I am ruled by negativity , injustice, the need for everyone to see the truth , all host of negative destructive emotions I cannot seem to let go of.
im so scared I am back there , and I've lost the ability to focus on all I have now in my life which I have worked so hard to get .
I found this amazing program six years ago, and it truly gave me the courage to change the things I could , yet today the disease is well and truly under my skin..
Ive got a face to face meeting tonight . I just wanted to thank you all for making me feel like I'm not alone with this .
Iamhere said
Mar 23, 2017
Welcome to MIP Faith40 - glad you found us and glad that you joined right in....when the disease raises up here, I tend to blame myself for allowing it to re-enter my life and/or affect my peace/serenity...those who came before me suggested playing the blame game is counter-productive to finding my peace and B2B Back to Basics is always a better approach....there is still something deep within me that wants to try and control, fix, etc. each time - grateful there are others around me who can help me see how powerless I am no matter my age/stage!
Hope your meeting tonight is awesome!! (((Hugs))) - glad to have you as part of my journey!
Faith40 said
Mar 23, 2017
Thankyou X
yep the attempt to fix arggghhhhh... Also this constant expectation and constant disappointment ... Such a battle ..
hotrod said
Mar 23, 2017
Hi Faith Glad that you took the time to share. Welcome happy you are here.
Glad that you are working the program as it works when we work it.
I stumbled upon this group a year ago when I was struggling to get to face to face meetings and it's been a blessing.
I don't often post, but i regularly read and just hearing 'program speak 'is invaluable .
i thought I would officially say hi .
Ive had some years of peace due to how severe the drinking of my xah got , but now he is currently , for now, ...(dry drunk ) back on his feet and in turn back in my life , the necessary boundaries are in place but due to our child some form of contact is currently needed.
the last few days I am ruled by negativity , injustice, the need for everyone to see the truth , all host of negative destructive emotions I cannot seem to let go of.
im so scared I am back there , and I've lost the ability to focus on all I have now in my life which I have worked so hard to get .
I found this amazing program six years ago, and it truly gave me the courage to change the things I could , yet today the disease is well and truly under my skin..
Ive got a face to face meeting tonight . I just wanted to thank you all for making me feel like I'm not alone with this .
Hope your meeting tonight is awesome!! (((Hugs))) - glad to have you as part of my journey!
Thankyou X
yep the attempt to fix arggghhhhh... Also this constant expectation and constant disappointment ... Such a battle ..
Glad that you are working the program as it works when we work it.