What are you doing tonight? I haven't eaten in 2 days and I can't give plasma for money. Wondering if you have any food in your house.
He is an hour away. I sent him links to shelters and soup kitchens. He proceeded to tell me he had no money for gas.
I am so sad but know I need to let him experience his own journey. I love him, miss him and worry. One day at a time.
hotrod said
Jan 29, 2017
((Beth)) Positive thoughts on the way .
Jerry F said
Jan 29, 2017
I've draped my cloak of compassion over your shoulders sister and my recovering spirit to walk with him. Trust God. ((((hugs))))
shrnp said
Jan 29, 2017
I am sorry you are going through this.
Enigmatic said
Jan 29, 2017
I am sure that had to be difficult, but it sounds like you are relying on your higher power and allowing him the opportunity to find his (reminds me of today's ODAT)...Glad you were able to put your trust in the program! Hang in there, we're with you in thought and prayer
traylorparkboy said
Jan 29, 2017
He is in god's care now, from the sound of it.
el-cee said
Jan 30, 2017
That's the hard one right there. You are being so strong allowing him the dignity to help himself. This is truly let go let God. Hang tight he's right where he should be.
luv123 said
Jan 30, 2017
I remember very vividly this agony with similar texts, v mails...What helped me stay on my path were the ODAT slogan (or an hr at a time) & Let Go Let God truly placing him visually in HP's care. I would look at clock and say I can do this for next hr. As a Mom that was hard to do but I was able to do it with the support of these wonderful ppl in the rooms and lots of meetings.
Another tool: I actually used to text from my cell phone to an email account I had made just for this purpose (an E-God-Box) "HP, I place____ in your care for healing blessing and guidance- I will trust in the ultimate outworking of Good-help me walk by faith and not by sight from now until noon"... then I would do it again at noon and then again later as needed. It really helped me to do this physical act in order to release it mentally and then I could function for a few hrs. at a time.
Sending prayers for both of you---Nurture yourself with extreme self care dear one!
Iamhere said
Jan 30, 2017
(((Hugs))) - I too am sending you tons of positive support and prayers. God has got this - I believe deeply...
serenity47 said
Jan 30, 2017
((Tannersmom)) I have said the serenity prayer over and over again in my head when my thoughts about AD became to much to bear on my own. My prayers to you and your son.
Bethany66 said
Jan 31, 2017
Tannersmom,
I too understand your suffering, and I hope you can feel the hug I am sending out to you. Operating on our own power this is overwhelming and too much to bear. But relying on our HP to strengthen and uplift us and protect our children until that time they return to sanity is the only way through. My therapist helped by saying if I knew where my son was, I could bring him a sandwich, but by no means was he allowed to come home, even for dinner or a shower. It was tough, I looked for him everywhere, and he was never there to find. He figured his own way. And he is okay now. Don't lose hope.
Mom,
What are you doing tonight? I haven't eaten in 2 days and I can't give plasma for money. Wondering if you have any food in your house.
He is an hour away. I sent him links to shelters and soup kitchens. He proceeded to tell me he had no money for gas.
I am so sad but know I need to let him experience his own journey. I love him, miss him and worry. One day at a time.
I've draped my cloak of compassion over your shoulders sister and my recovering spirit to walk with him. Trust God. ((((hugs))))
I remember very vividly this agony with similar texts, v mails...What helped me stay on my path were the ODAT slogan (or an hr at a time) & Let Go Let God truly placing him visually in HP's care. I would look at clock and say I can do this for next hr. As a Mom that was hard to do but I was able to do it with the support of these wonderful ppl in the rooms and lots of meetings.
Another tool: I actually used to text from my cell phone to an email account I had made just for this purpose (an E-God-Box) "HP, I place____ in your care for healing blessing and guidance- I will trust in the ultimate outworking of Good-help me walk by faith and not by sight from now until noon"... then I would do it again at noon and then again later as needed. It really helped me to do this physical act in order to release it mentally and then I could function for a few hrs. at a time.
Sending prayers for both of you---Nurture yourself with extreme self care dear one!
I too understand your suffering, and I hope you can feel the hug I am sending out to you. Operating on our own power this is overwhelming and too much to bear. But relying on our HP to strengthen and uplift us and protect our children until that time they return to sanity is the only way through. My therapist helped by saying if I knew where my son was, I could bring him a sandwich, but by no means was he allowed to come home, even for dinner or a shower. It was tough, I looked for him everywhere, and he was never there to find. He figured his own way. And he is okay now. Don't lose hope.
(((((hugs)))))