I had a ohh moment. I was reading on line here and read about focusing on myself. I have been so much in physical pain lately, not sure, doctors are running tests, that focusing on the alcoholic has not even been an option for me. I am seeing the pain as my friend right now. It has been helping me to not to focus on anyone but myself and how to get through each moment, due to the physical pain I am in. I am to see the doctor tomorrow and get results, as they did a number of blood work.
Today, I am grateful, sobriety remains in the home. I am really focusing hard on one day at a time right now. I have been crying a lot lately due to intensive pain I have been in and just feeling extremely fed up with being sick. Its been 2 years of hell, due to my physical pain.
Yesterday, I broke down hard crying as I feel my body can not tolerate anymore and will begin to shut down soon. I know this sounds selfish, but in a way, I wish it would, then I could get pain relief and some time in the hospital just so I can get some proper help! I know this is selfish thinking but I just need to get some pain relief and answers to what is causing me to hurt so much!
I also know, despite how much pain my body is in, if the drinking starts again, I will fly out the door...I just can not tolerate anymore. I have had my limit!
I am just enjoying the quite this morning and I say, thank you god! Thank you God! Thank you for sobriety and quietness this morning! I am so, so grateful!
lookingup said
Jan 8, 2017
((((Joker)))), I'm sorry for all the physical pain you been going through and continue to go through my thoughts are with you,
And prayers going out to you that God will ease and take away your pain.
I'm glad your a I'd sober also,for your do right you are enough with with all this pain,,,,,,,,wishing you to be pain free and that the doctors will get to the source of your pain and get you pain free........(((((hugs))))) Looking up
Jerry F said
Jan 8, 2017
Joker send some of that pain this way...will share it with you as I've been doing pretty good for a while...just my back and then I've got a program for that also. ((((hugs))))
Iamhere said
Jan 8, 2017
(((Joker))) - prayers that tomorrow will give you facts that you can manage from! Sending positive thoughts your way and healing 'mo-jo'!!! (((Hugs)))
I had a ohh moment. I was reading on line here and read about focusing on myself. I have been so much in physical pain lately, not sure, doctors are running tests, that focusing on the alcoholic has not even been an option for me. I am seeing the pain as my friend right now. It has been helping me to not to focus on anyone but myself and how to get through each moment, due to the physical pain I am in. I am to see the doctor tomorrow and get results, as they did a number of blood work.
Today, I am grateful, sobriety remains in the home. I am really focusing hard on one day at a time right now. I have been crying a lot lately due to intensive pain I have been in and just feeling extremely fed up with being sick. Its been 2 years of hell, due to my physical pain.
Yesterday, I broke down hard crying as I feel my body can not tolerate anymore and will begin to shut down soon. I know this sounds selfish, but in a way, I wish it would, then I could get pain relief and some time in the hospital just so I can get some proper help! I know this is selfish thinking but I just need to get some pain relief and answers to what is causing me to hurt so much!
I also know, despite how much pain my body is in, if the drinking starts again, I will fly out the door...I just can not tolerate anymore. I have had my limit!
I am just enjoying the quite this morning and I say, thank you god! Thank you God! Thank you for sobriety and quietness this morning! I am so, so grateful!
And prayers going out to you that God will ease and take away your pain.
I'm glad your a I'd sober also,for your do right you are enough with with all this pain,,,,,,,,wishing you to be pain free and that the doctors will get to the source of your pain and get you pain free........(((((hugs))))) Looking up
Joker send some of that pain this way...will share it with you as I've been doing pretty good for a while...just my back and then I've got a program for that also. ((((hugs))))