I went to my first ACOA meeting tonight and WOW was it good!! Every reading, every share just blew me away. So tonight I decided I would share. My whole body tensed. Locked up almost. I was shaking and my voice kept catching. And the icing on the cake, I broke out in hives.
I felt sick to my stomach and couldn't stop shaking for an hour after. I'm still tensed up.
in any social situation I'm usually really comfortable. I can go anywhere and leave with a bunch of new friends. I'm not naturally a nervous person.
i think it's because I was being honest and vulnerable. Two things I'm very bad at.
I'm really hoping this goes away... it was the strangest thing.
has anyone dealt with this & overcome it?
addictedtolove said
Nov 25, 2016
Hi SarahGee
Great to hear about your courage and good experience at the meeting!
I haven't dealt with what you have, however can empathize so much as vulnerability is probably my biggest challenge -
Don't think you're bad at it, you just haven't felt comfortable with it - there's a reason for that.
Have you been hurt and betrayed a lot as I have?
I'm trying not to berate myself, but also know that to be vulnerable is my greatest challenge and what I need to do and be.
My heart is breaking wide open right now, and I am absolutely determined not to tuck it away for fear and let it harden - it's the best of me I've got.
Feelings are hard also. Feel them, and they'll move through you. It's a message your body is telling you about how important it all is.
Good on you for you doing the work - here's to your strength and courage!
hugs.
Iamhere said
Nov 25, 2016
(((Sarah))) - good on you for stepping outside your comfort zone! I have been very anxious and full of fear when doing new things, for me it typically passes once I find a groove. I've never been affected as you were - sending you tons of (((hugs))), prayers and positive thoughts.
I went to my first ACOA meeting tonight and WOW was it good!! Every reading, every share just blew me away. So tonight I decided I would share. My whole body tensed. Locked up almost. I was shaking and my voice kept catching. And the icing on the cake, I broke out in hives.
I felt sick to my stomach and couldn't stop shaking for an hour after. I'm still tensed up.
in any social situation I'm usually really comfortable. I can go anywhere and leave with a bunch of new friends. I'm not naturally a nervous person.
i think it's because I was being honest and vulnerable. Two things I'm very bad at.
I'm really hoping this goes away... it was the strangest thing.
has anyone dealt with this & overcome it?
Great to hear about your courage and good experience at the meeting!
I haven't dealt with what you have, however can empathize so much as vulnerability is probably my biggest challenge -
Don't think you're bad at it, you just haven't felt comfortable with it - there's a reason for that.
Have you been hurt and betrayed a lot as I have?
I'm trying not to berate myself, but also know that to be vulnerable is my greatest challenge and what I need to do and be.
My heart is breaking wide open right now, and I am absolutely determined not to tuck it away for fear and let it harden - it's the best of me I've got.
Feelings are hard also. Feel them, and they'll move through you. It's a message your body is telling you about how important it all is.
Good on you for you doing the work - here's to your strength and courage!
hugs.