In the past week I have had to say goodbye to 2 daughters and 4 grandchildren, and it has been a very painful process. Having lost another grandchild through the family court as a result of this disease 8 years ago I am proud to say that I have learned very quickly to "detach and let God",but had to have a stroke first.  Of course I am feeling the grief once again at knowing that I will not be seeing my beautiful grand-daughters until they are at an age to decide for themselves whether or not they wish to have a relationship with me, however I am also very aware of my powerlessness over this cunning, baffling and deadly disease. Something has to give eventually, and letting go now is going to save alot of heartache further on down the track. Thank you for all those who replied to my last post regarding my P addict daughter. She left my home of her own accord because I did not cave in to her demands to allow her P addict boyfriend stay with me. She called to let me know that she is booking in to rehab, and I wish her all the best. YOURS IN FELLOWSHIP.

Thanks for your kind words. Yes I will be gentle on myself. What would I do without this program?

((AprlC)) Positive thoughts and prayers on the way. Please do be gentle with yourself and remember that you are not alone.

sorry you are going through this.  I have no extended family.  The alcohol and crazy behavior saw to that.  I was the black sheep/truth teller/scapegoat cast into the wilderness.  It's hard.  As a grandma, it soooo hard for you.  The holidays are very hard or me.  I made up my mind this year, I am going to have fun, with the people that treat me right. I will only associate with people that are nice to me and I will be nice to them.  I am trying very hard not to be so dependent.  Even if I am by myself, it's better than suffering in pain with these negative behaviors.

I am trying really hard to focus on the good.  Focus on any good and minimize the bad.