There's a good chance that my job will end in December due to funding issues. I've known this since late June and have been pretty fine with it -- I actually haven't been stressed at all about the potential job loss, and have been leaving that up to HP. (I really think I work my program best in all areas that are not dealing with an alcoholic love partner) Anyway, I've been sort of looking around at various jobs and have applied for a few that sounded good and do-able and have some interviews coming up. Because of my massive student loans, I need to work for a non-profit for the next 7 years. However, my dream job would be doing something with antiques or auctions. I was recently discussing this with someone while dog walking and said "if only there were a non-profit job in an antique store", knowing full well (bc I always know everything) that there was no such thing. I've also been wanting to purchase some kind of country home (with what money? I can't afford this in any way, it's a total dream) in a rural community about 30 minutes from my house
Well..... I saw a job posting yesterday for the manager of an antique store which is a non-profit that employs people with disabilities and it's in that town. What??? How perfect is that? So now, I am in the weird position of being both really excited about this opportunity and really scared of this opportunity. I applied for the job. But I'm scared of various vague things -- I'm using the al-anon tools of introspection to try to understand what's going on. This is something I really want for myself. Not for anyone else. Some of my fears are letting my current team down (if we don't all get laid off in December), taking a lower-status job, and generally making a big mistake. So I'm examining each one of these fears and seeing the character defects that are related to them (care-taking of others, unrealistic sense of responsibility for others, control freak, and caring more about what others think of me than what my HP and I think of me). If I got this job, it would really be all about me -- I'd be doing something I have said I've wanted to do for a long time. I'd be in a community that I've wanted to be part of. And I'd be chipping away at my blasted student loans. I would get what I want! And I'm scared!
It's such an interesting position to be in and I'm soooo grateful to have these al-anon tools to examine my crazy mind. You never ever know what's coming next in life, do you? Well, I don't. I'm giving thanks to HP for this opportunity and hoping to have a chance to move forward in understanding myself.
jojo8466 said
Oct 14, 2016
Wow!!! I would say this is a story of HP truly giving you what you desire (working in an antique store) - what you deserve (getting to get rid of those student loans) - and living a life of peace (in a rural community with a country setting). I know you are going to get the job!!! The writing is on the wall!!! I'm very happy for you!!!! And remember remember your co-workers HP will take care of them just like your HP is obviously answering your prayers and taking care of you!!! This is AMAZING!!!
hotrod said
Oct 14, 2016
E.I.M. yu are exhibiting a great deal of courage in acting in a constructive manner even when you are feeling fearful. Positive thoughts and prayers for a successful outcome.
Iamhere said
Oct 14, 2016
EIM - great share and how awesome is it to just 'be' and 'see'. I would agree with Betty - the courage you've shown in dealing with possibly losing your job and then looking for something else is awesome! I say, stay present, one day at a time and just go through the process. HP has got this and you've got HP. I too am sending you positive thoughts and prayers!
There's a good chance that my job will end in December due to funding issues. I've known this since late June and have been pretty fine with it -- I actually haven't been stressed at all about the potential job loss, and have been leaving that up to HP. (I really think I work my program best in all areas that are not dealing with an alcoholic love partner) Anyway, I've been sort of looking around at various jobs and have applied for a few that sounded good and do-able and have some interviews coming up. Because of my massive student loans, I need to work for a non-profit for the next 7 years. However, my dream job would be doing something with antiques or auctions. I was recently discussing this with someone while dog walking and said "if only there were a non-profit job in an antique store", knowing full well (bc I always know everything) that there was no such thing. I've also been wanting to purchase some kind of country home (with what money? I can't afford this in any way, it's a total dream) in a rural community about 30 minutes from my house
Well..... I saw a job posting yesterday for the manager of an antique store which is a non-profit that employs people with disabilities and it's in that town. What??? How perfect is that? So now, I am in the weird position of being both really excited about this opportunity and really scared of this opportunity. I applied for the job. But I'm scared of various vague things -- I'm using the al-anon tools of introspection to try to understand what's going on. This is something I really want for myself. Not for anyone else. Some of my fears are letting my current team down (if we don't all get laid off in December), taking a lower-status job, and generally making a big mistake. So I'm examining each one of these fears and seeing the character defects that are related to them (care-taking of others, unrealistic sense of responsibility for others, control freak, and caring more about what others think of me than what my HP and I think of me). If I got this job, it would really be all about me -- I'd be doing something I have said I've wanted to do for a long time. I'd be in a community that I've wanted to be part of. And I'd be chipping away at my blasted student loans. I would get what I want! And I'm scared!
It's such an interesting position to be in and I'm soooo grateful to have these al-anon tools to examine my crazy mind. You never ever know what's coming next in life, do you? Well, I don't. I'm giving thanks to HP for this opportunity and hoping to have a chance to move forward in understanding myself.