It has been months since I have posted anything on here. I haven't been really practicing my program & haven't been to very many meetings. I feel kind of ashamed to admit that I may be backsliding into some of my old behaviors. I miss being on here but sometimes feel what I say may go on a deaf ear since I don't have it all together & am missing some parts. I have been getting along a lot better w/ my AH. He is trying so hard & succeeding on helping our marriage work & still keeping himself pretty physically fit. I am just making it day by day trying to keep going w/ all the pain I have. For those who don't know me, I am suffering from an auto-immune disease that is taking away all of my strength. I just turned 50 a few months ago & now they the powers that be want me to get a colonoscopy soon. I am afraid actually that I won't be able to bear the process although my dad died almost 5 years ago w/ stage 4 colon cancer. I am not looking for advice just a listening ear as I go through this process. I want to be perfectly clear that I don't intend to go w/o hte procedure, I just want to give some time & pray for the best possible experience.
Today is a new day. Maybe it will be a new chapter in my life to be on here again & not feel like I always have to be at the top of my game.
Love you all!
Kathleen
Iamhere said
Oct 8, 2016
(((Kathleen))) - so good to see you.....I find it easy at times to return to a 'my will' mentality. I find it easy, until it's not. You are correct - today is a new day. I love that our program tells us that each new day is a gift to do what we need to do to make us/it better. Yesterday already doesn't matter. Tomorrow's not here. Life for me just seems so much simpler when I can stay in this day.
I am now 54 and am fortunate to be reasonably healthy. We have extreme colon/intestinal issues in my family from cancer to Crohn's. I am the youngest of my siblings, and one has IBSD, one has Crohn's and the other is more private. They had me concerned/scared to do the colonoscopy process. My mind and thinking often makes mountains our of mole hills; it was not nearly as bad as others said it would be and I had a clear screen.
Take good care of you - we miss you when you are not here! (((Hugs))) and love back at you!
hotrod said
Oct 8, 2016
Hello Kathleen Missed you. Positive thoughts and prayers on the way.
It has been months since I have posted anything on here. I haven't been really practicing my program & haven't been to very many meetings. I feel kind of ashamed to admit that I may be backsliding into some of my old behaviors. I miss being on here but sometimes feel what I say may go on a deaf ear since I don't have it all together & am missing some parts. I have been getting along a lot better w/ my AH. He is trying so hard & succeeding on helping our marriage work & still keeping himself pretty physically fit. I am just making it day by day trying to keep going w/ all the pain I have. For those who don't know me, I am suffering from an auto-immune disease that is taking away all of my strength. I just turned 50 a few months ago & now they the powers that be want me to get a colonoscopy soon. I am afraid actually that I won't be able to bear the process although my dad died almost 5 years ago w/ stage 4 colon cancer. I am not looking for advice just a listening ear as I go through this process. I want to be perfectly clear that I don't intend to go w/o hte procedure, I just want to give some time & pray for the best possible experience.
Today is a new day. Maybe it will be a new chapter in my life to be on here again & not feel like I always have to be at the top of my game.
Love you all!
Kathleen
I am now 54 and am fortunate to be reasonably healthy. We have extreme colon/intestinal issues in my family from cancer to Crohn's. I am the youngest of my siblings, and one has IBSD, one has Crohn's and the other is more private. They had me concerned/scared to do the colonoscopy process. My mind and thinking often makes mountains our of mole hills; it was not nearly as bad as others said it would be and I had a clear screen.
Take good care of you - we miss you when you are not here! (((Hugs))) and love back at you!