it was a very difficult night and day today . Our daughter was missing for over 24 hours . We filed a police report . I contacted many people in her recovery network to try and find her . She has been sober 9 months as far as I know. She eventually surfaced . Was trying to deflect and deny the truth on the phone stating that we were over reacting. She was upset we called the police . I said to bad that's what loving concerned parents do, its her consequence to deal with and I will do it again if she dissapears again . People in recovery do not go missing for 24 hours with no regard to family\friends. I simply said stop rationalizing and just be accountable for yourself. I was advised by others that she had slipped last night and all signs point to it. I did waste a lot of my day today trying to track her down, spoke with her sponsor and numerous other people but when its our child you feel compelled to ensure that they are safe. Her sponsor is actually the one who suggested I call police. Its frightening how quickly my mind went to worst case scenarios as there has been a huge public health crisis here in our country with fentanyl being laced in everything from marijuana to cocaine and numerous young people have died recently. Anyways, tonight I am thankful she is safe and alive and I am thankful for her friends and sponsor in recovery who were very supportive today and tried their best to locate her as well. I am focusing on myself tonight and getting some much needed sleep! I can only pray that she reaches out to her supports in recovery whom care about her a lot. Now I know she is alive I will step back and focus on my own stuff. Clearly I have a lot of work to do. I do remember last night something Jerry F said a long time ago to someone aout asking my hp to just look after her for a little while and keep her safe so I could sleep a bit. I did manage to drift off for an hour or two until I jolted awake to check my phone to see if she had responded. It helped a little bit to know and believe that her hp was with her.
-- Edited by serenity47 on Monday 19th of September 2016 10:50:37 PM
hotrod said
Sep 19, 2016
(((Serenity))) positive thoughts and prayers on the way
Iamhere said
Sep 20, 2016
(((Serenity))) - I too am sending positive thoughts and prayers. I do understand your concern for her safety - been there and it's very frightening indeed.
serenity47 said
Sep 21, 2016
Short update. My AD seems to be back on track, more of a slip then a complete relapse for today anyways. Once I knew she was alive, I worked hard to get back into my own hula hoop and mind my own business. She knows what she needs to do. I only said its not the end of the world, we love you, get back in the saddle and do what you need to do. Time will tell I guess.... It is hard to keep the anxiety at bay, but its improving a little each day. This disease will kill me along with her if I don't stay focused on my own recovery. I am thankful for this board to be able to come and vent when I need to. I appreciate you all so much.
el-cee said
Sep 22, 2016
I've had a few nights like this too and it's awful. Glad she's OK and I hope it is only a slip. It's good she has aa. Those people are the ones that know what to do x
Iamhere said
Sep 22, 2016
Thanks for the update serenity - positive thoughts and prayers continue for you and your daughter. El-Cee is spot on - those in recovery can help her get back on track if that's what she's aiming for. Keep the faith and know you aren't alone!
serenity47 said
Sep 22, 2016
Thanks ladies. Yes that is what I am learning to accept that the programs NA/AA have what she needs if she wants it.
it was a very difficult night and day today . Our daughter was missing for over 24 hours . We filed a police report . I contacted many people in her recovery network to try and find her . She has been sober 9 months as far as I know. She eventually surfaced . Was trying to deflect and deny the truth on the phone stating that we were over reacting. She was upset we called the police . I said to bad that's what loving concerned parents do, its her consequence to deal with and I will do it again if she dissapears again . People in recovery do not go missing for 24 hours with no regard to family\friends. I simply said stop rationalizing and just be accountable for yourself. I was advised by others that she had slipped last night and all signs point to it. I did waste a lot of my day today trying to track her down, spoke with her sponsor and numerous other people but when its our child you feel compelled to ensure that they are safe. Her sponsor is actually the one who suggested I call police. Its frightening how quickly my mind went to worst case scenarios as there has been a huge public health crisis here in our country with fentanyl being laced in everything from marijuana to cocaine and numerous young people have died recently. Anyways, tonight I am thankful she is safe and alive and I am thankful for her friends and sponsor in recovery who were very supportive today and tried their best to locate her as well. I am focusing on myself tonight and getting some much needed sleep! I can only pray that she reaches out to her supports in recovery whom care about her a lot. Now I know she is alive I will step back and focus on my own stuff. Clearly I have a lot of work to do. I do remember last night something Jerry F said a long time ago to someone aout asking my hp to just look after her for a little while and keep her safe so I could sleep a bit. I did manage to drift off for an hour or two until I jolted awake to check my phone to see if she had responded. It helped a little bit to know and believe that her hp was with her.
-- Edited by serenity47 on Monday 19th of September 2016 10:50:37 PM
(((Serenity))) positive thoughts and prayers on the way