Just feeling bit down really. also been drinking a bit above what I should really. I know this has a negative effects on my mood, body, feeling crappy next morning.
This is why it's all the more bizarre how As can just get up and operate like nothing has happened the next day!
I know I'm not in good health psychologically.
Today I'm not going to drink like I would do on a Saturday. I'm going to help out with the kids sports session like I always do on a Saturday, have my sports session straight afterwards. instead of buying booze at the supermarket I'll get some fruit juices and healthy snacks. feed the body
hotrod said
Sep 17, 2016
Good work on Step 10 Jitsuka
Great plan for the day. One day at a time being gentle with ourselves we recover.
Iamhere said
Sep 17, 2016
(((Jitsuka))) - life is tough - life with this disease is nearly impossible without support of some sort. I am sorry that you are having a tough time - I agree with Betty....try to be gentle with yourself. I have to remind myself often and always that we are imperfect people living in an imperfect world. I follow that up with if God had wanted me perfect, I would not make mistakes. We are all made as we are and we only have one day at a time to live, love and find joy/peace. Do a little something just for you today - don't fret about the past. It's already over/gone.
Gratitude lists and asset lists do really help me see that I am OK - I am better than OK - I am loved and loving. It always makes me realize I will be OK no matter what else happens.
(((Hugs)))
jitsuka said
Sep 17, 2016
thank you xxx
I feel a bit better. still pretty down, but more 'reflective'
Reading some of the recent posts but makes me feel sad ... I reflect on my own situation and when I was there ... I realise I have come further and healed, but I'm still scarred, battle-worn, wounded and still vulnerable. I'm also mourning for 'what could have been'
It makes me sad and also daunting to think about trying to start life up again, I'm not getting any younger! Making a new home. Starting a new life. My person situation where I'm already divorced and ahve an older daughter, as well as a younger daughter with my partner. I must go on though
xxx
pinkchip said
Sep 17, 2016
Jitsuka, it's overwhelming to think about but if you either had to or chose to, you could and would make the best of it. I have no doubt. Right now you are just not there yet and that is fine. I believe you are stronger than you think.
jitsuka said
Sep 18, 2016
Thank you pinkchip
Emma123 said
Sep 18, 2016
Glad you are taking care of yourself Jitsuka and choosing exercise and healthy foods. Hope you are feeling better today.
jitsuka said
Sep 21, 2016
Emma123 wrote:
Glad you are taking care of yourself Jitsuka and choosing exercise and healthy foods. Hope you are feeling better today.
Thanks. Things are OK, life is still slightly chaotic. I hate coming home and knowing that in a couple of hours she will do the pretending to go upstairs for something and she's drinking. Then I know the evening will have a degree of tension.
The local university sports clubs that I train at have started up again, last night it was the first Chinese Kickboxing training session. It was 1 hour of total insanity training, I really enjoyed it and felt so energised.
I know I shouldn't have expectations, it's still saddening.
Jerry F said
Sep 21, 2016
also been drinking a bit above what I should really.... just a reflection J because I am also a recovering A....our chemical is listed as a chemical depressant and that awareness allowed and allows me to eliminate one symptom from my daily life. Of course there are other thoughts, feelings and behaviors I need to change also and I don't drink alcohol. With you on this. (((hugs)))
jitsuka said
Sep 23, 2016
Jerry F wrote:
also been drinking a bit above what I should really.... just a reflection J because I am also a recovering A....our chemical is listed as a chemical depressant and that awareness allowed and allows me to eliminate one symptom from my daily life. Of course there are other thoughts, feelings and behaviors I need to change also and I don't drink alcohol. With you on this. (((hugs)))
Just feeling bit down really. also been drinking a bit above what I should really. I know this has a negative effects on my mood, body, feeling crappy next morning.
This is why it's all the more bizarre how As can just get up and operate like nothing has happened the next day!
I know I'm not in good health psychologically.
Today I'm not going to drink like I would do on a Saturday. I'm going to help out with the kids sports session like I always do on a Saturday, have my sports session straight afterwards. instead of buying booze at the supermarket I'll get some fruit juices and healthy snacks. feed the body
Great plan for the day. One day at a time being gentle with ourselves we recover.
Gratitude lists and asset lists do really help me see that I am OK - I am better than OK - I am loved and loving. It always makes me realize I will be OK no matter what else happens.
(((Hugs)))
I feel a bit better. still pretty down, but more 'reflective'
Reading some of the recent posts but makes me feel sad ... I reflect on my own situation and when I was there ... I realise I have come further and healed, but I'm still scarred, battle-worn, wounded and still vulnerable. I'm also mourning for 'what could have been'
It makes me sad and also daunting to think about trying to start life up again, I'm not getting any younger! Making a new home. Starting a new life. My person situation where I'm already divorced and ahve an older daughter, as well as a younger daughter with my partner. I must go on though
xxx
Thanks. Things are OK, life is still slightly chaotic. I hate coming home and knowing that in a couple of hours she will do the pretending to go upstairs for something and she's drinking. Then I know the evening will have a degree of tension.
The local university sports clubs that I train at have started up again, last night it was the first Chinese Kickboxing training session. It was 1 hour of total insanity training, I really enjoyed it and felt so energised.
I know I shouldn't have expectations, it's still saddening.
also been drinking a bit above what I should really.... just a reflection J because I am also a recovering A....our chemical is listed as a chemical depressant and that awareness allowed and allows me to eliminate one symptom from my daily life. Of course there are other thoughts, feelings and behaviors I need to change also and I don't drink alcohol. With you on this. (((hugs)))
thank you Jerry, hope you are OK