I have been doing really well detaching, staying on my side of the street, working on me and my interests, focusing on a closer / more consistent communication with my HP. Today, not so much.
For some reason I just couldn't pause before responding or not; I reacted. I barked. I acted exasperated. Even after praying for guidance, all AH's little comments and digs kept getting to me. When I left the room it was in anger; when I didn't say much, it was punitive. When I tried to start the day over, it became groundhog's day!
So, today was a step back, but as long as I am still moving in the right direction most days, I can forgive my imperfections. Think I will hit a meeting tomorrow!
Hugs- Ellen
Iamhere said
Sep 8, 2016
(((Ellen))) - great awareness and it does happen......some days, I believe I am a miracle just making it to my pillow. Yet, I still see you and me exactly as we are when this happens - imperfect humans living in an imperfect world doing the best we can with what we got. I can't always says why, but I do have 'more' some days than others!
Prayers and positive thoughts you way - we are all miracles in progress even on our worst days as we've survived! (((Hugs)))
hotrod said
Sep 8, 2016
Hello Ellen Great Step 10 work. Seeing exactly what we do,d understanding our motives and owning our behavior are all great step toward recovery. Progress not perfection is our goal
Hi all!
Not one of my better days today > program-wise.
I have been doing really well detaching, staying on my side of the street, working on me and my interests, focusing on a closer / more consistent communication with my HP. Today, not so much.
For some reason I just couldn't pause before responding or not; I reacted. I barked. I acted exasperated. Even after praying for guidance, all AH's little comments and digs kept getting to me. When I left the room it was in anger; when I didn't say much, it was punitive. When I tried to start the day over, it became groundhog's day!
So, today was a step back, but as long as I am still moving in the right direction most days, I can forgive my imperfections. Think I will hit a meeting tomorrow!
Hugs- Ellen
Prayers and positive thoughts you way - we are all miracles in progress even on our worst days as we've survived! (((Hugs)))