I unpacked the final boxes of my new place. I found my journal I kept when my ex and I first broke up close to two years ago now. It was truly a painful time in my life. The words written full of hurt, blame, naievity and hope. As I read each passage, i recognized how far I've come in my journey and how far I still want to go. I read the entry of when he went into treatment; it's funny how that was the one thing that I thought would make things better. Yet that entry also was filled with more anxiety of the unknown of that time. I read it and recalled how I felt at that time and yet instead of getting worked up and emotional,I smiled and laughed. Some of the words I wrote still were feelings I have yet others were of someone that hadn't yet discovered the strength she had inside her. Today I measured my progress by those journal entries. How do you measure your progress? Or better yet when have you had that moment of realizing "wow, that's not how I would have handled things before?"
-- Edited by Crau on Monday 5th of September 2016 09:42:29 PM
hotrod said
Sep 5, 2016
Hi Crau Good work It is great to reflect on the progress we have made . After my first go around with the Steps, many years ago, I was continually amazed at my changed attitudes and responses as I interacted in my world.
Today I still do reflect on my ability to not react but to respond in situations where I would invariably jump in give advise and , try to control.
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Iamhere said
Sep 5, 2016
I'm with Betty as well as you - reflection for me shows me where I've grown. Since we get to focus on just one day at a time, and since we're about progress, and not perfection, I also am proud of me when I have a sad day and don't dwell - but instead reach for my tools, my friends, my sponsor or slogan...I was a big isolation queen and am very private by design, so reaching out gives me peace and comfort and helps me see progress too!
SerenityRUS said
Sep 5, 2016
I re-read things I have written here some of it is cringe worthy and some of it is actually pretty funny stuff. LOL .. I think my ability to see things from a different perspective shows me that I have grown up a lot however have a long ways to go. I love the fact that I am and always will be a work in progress.
I unpacked the final boxes of my new place. I found my journal I kept when my ex and I first broke up close to two years ago now. It was truly a painful time in my life. The words written full of hurt, blame, naievity and hope. As I read each passage, i recognized how far I've come in my journey and how far I still want to go. I read the entry of when he went into treatment; it's funny how that was the one thing that I thought would make things better. Yet that entry also was filled with more anxiety of the unknown of that time. I read it and recalled how I felt at that time and yet instead of getting worked up and emotional,I smiled and laughed. Some of the words I wrote still were feelings I have yet others were of someone that hadn't yet discovered the strength she had inside her. Today I measured my progress by those journal entries. How do you measure your progress? Or better yet when have you had that moment of realizing "wow, that's not how I would have handled things before?"
-- Edited by Crau on Monday 5th of September 2016 09:42:29 PM
Wonderful insight on your part.
Hugs S :)