I'm feeling incredibly restless lately. Especially during the day. I feel like there is so much I want to do and I just can't get myself focused to do it. And then I'm beating myself up for not being more productive. And I woke up feeling so tired. I feel like I've been so tired all the time. Yet, the the thought of taking a nap sounds crazy to me right now. I'm tired but I have this wild energy that I can't seem to harness. So many thoughts going through my mind.
irish54 said
Jan 11, 2006
I do relate to your feelings. I have and still am going through much of the same feelings and have been for 3 years now. The worse started when I watched my mother die 3 yrs ago and i fell into the worst depression ever. The saddest thing is that although I knew and recognized the depression, I never sought help. I just sat in it day by day. Now because of several other crisis' in my live; one son sent to prison, my sisters' suicide this year, and my other son living with us and being mentally ill. etc, I finally realized i had no choice but to ask for help. I am currently seeing a counselor and going to al-anon. The mental health services here really stink, since my son has no income and no insurance, and we are battling to get him the help he needs. The fact is I have spent so much time in my depression and trying to fix others that my health has suffered. I still am tired everyday and I don't get my housework all done, but then I talk to myself and tell myself that I have been "insane" for a long time (my kids father was an alcoholic and drug dealer) and my housework has suffered terribly for 3 years and I can't possible fix it all in one day. Somedays I just allow myself to "take the day off" and other days I do what I can in my house and continue my al-anon and counseling. I know if I continue with these I will get better. One other things is when I am restless like this I MAKE myself go for a walk. There is hope! :)
Jennifer said
Jan 11, 2006
Hi Em,
I know what you mean. Not sure why here but it feels like I have springtime ambitions and wintertime energy. ~laugh~ It's conflicting, to have ideas in my head and my body says it wants to sleep ... the next day it's reversed.
Jennifer
maresie said
Jan 11, 2006
One way I deal with that restlessness is do a type of meditation where I just do one thing at a time to completion. I watch all those crazy thoughts in my head of trying to do a million things at once and just doing one thing at a time helps it to drop down and get quieter and to heal.
I know living as I do as stressed out as I am and just being around my boyfriend and his crazy behavior is stressful. He is always driving erratically and it gets so so old to be out with him. I have to make a lot of emotional space for myself. He is like an infant clambering for attention all the time and it is very stressful to be around him so I make a lot of time apart from him and keep focused on my issues and do not obsess about his.
I also set very very reasonable goals for myself. I used to set impossible goals now I set reasonable ones.
Maresie.
Feather said
Jan 12, 2006
Just a thought I had while reading your post is - lists! I have days similar to what you are describing and find I can more easily focus by making a list of what I want to get accomplished, I keep it realistic and tick things off as I go. Once the list is completed I get a great sense of satisfaction.
As I said just a thought.
Feather
-- Edited by Feather at 19:27, 2006-01-12
Gailey said
Jan 12, 2006
Speaking of lists...the other day I made a list of all the things that are causing anxiety in my life at the present time. It does change from week to week or even day to day. I think what it did was to get it out of my head and on to paper where I can look at each one without having all that stuff running around in my head. Lists, I think, are a good thing. It helps me to concentrate on one thing at a time.
Emafer said
Jan 12, 2006
Thank you all for sharing. I think that I"m just so anxious to NOT think about my "A" that I'm going mad trying to fill my mind with other thoughts. I haven't spoken to him or seen home for about a week and a half and I miss him. But I"m determined to let him come to me in his own time if that's what's meant to be.
Hi Em,
I know what you mean. Not sure why here but it feels like I have springtime ambitions and wintertime energy. ~laugh~ It's conflicting, to have ideas in my head and my body says it wants to sleep ... the next day it's reversed.
Jennifer
One way I deal with that restlessness is do a type of meditation where I just do one thing at a time to completion. I watch all those crazy thoughts in my head of trying to do a million things at once and just doing one thing at a time helps it to drop down and get quieter and to heal.
I know living as I do as stressed out as I am and just being around my boyfriend and his crazy behavior is stressful. He is always driving erratically and it gets so so old to be out with him. I have to make a lot of emotional space for myself. He is like an infant clambering for attention all the time and it is very stressful to be around him so I make a lot of time apart from him and keep focused on my issues and do not obsess about his.
I also set very very reasonable goals for myself. I used to set impossible goals now I set reasonable ones.
Maresie.
Just a thought I had while reading your post is - lists! I have days similar to what you are describing and find I can more easily focus by making a list of what I want to get accomplished, I keep it realistic and tick things off as I go. Once the list is completed I get a great sense of satisfaction.
As I said just a thought.
Feather
-- Edited by Feather at 19:27, 2006-01-12
Thank you all for sharing. I think that I"m just so anxious to NOT think about my "A" that I'm going mad trying to fill my mind with other thoughts. I haven't spoken to him or seen home for about a week and a half and I miss him. But I"m determined to let him come to me in his own time if that's what's meant to be.
I like the idea of making a list. Good call!