Today is New Years....

I just went to pick up my great Grandma.I am soo close to her.She is the best.When I got there to help my grandpa put her in the car...she did not know who I was.I had a tear rolling down.As we were driving in the car..she constantly repeated the word red and black,and said her numbers.She was never like this.I am afraid I will loose her soon.She kept telling me red,red,red.She also told me to take off my glasses because then the people will hurt me,or something to that extent.My heart literally skipped a beat.

I looked over to my grandpa while he was driving,and I saw that big tear drop falling down.I told him,"It's ok it is her medicine" Honestly I do not think it is the medication causing this.She also hallucinates now.She is talking to someone who is not here.It just breaks my heart into tiny pieces.

I wish that there was something that I could do to fix the problem.My grandpa will be soo devestated if she died.I would be too.I am more worried about him because that is his mom,and he already lost his dad.

So I wrote my heart out again....

 

Angel of Death

(a poem dedicated to the one I love)

 

I sit here crying, hoping that this will not mean she is dying

I see her look at me, with a blank stare

I am so hurt because I do care

She was my all

The one I ran to when I would fall

Now I look into her dark and dreary eyes, I know just me looking at her is a surprise

She asked me who I was, and told me hello

She shook my hand instead of embracing me

I wanted so bad to tell her who I really was

Instead I pretended for her just because

I didn’t want her to forget me

I am her only Great-Grand Daughter you see

Yet I am a stranger in her eyes

She cried for no reason

Maybe this is caused by the winter season

Whatever the cause is

Please bring her back soon

I want her as she was before

But I also don’t want her to hurt anymore

As painful as it sounds

I hear the wind whispering

My hair blowing

I don’t this to be the last Holiday

I love her, and I want her to stay

Please angel hear me now

I don’t know how

But please let this not be the angel of death

Keep her breathing and not let this be her last breath

 

Lauren~

 

-- Edited by Lauren ashley at 17:48, 2006-01-01

Your the 2nd friend person today that had told me this similiar story.

No ES&H here but bunches of hugs.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Lauren}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Bob

Actually I've seen medication push an elder with an ordinarily clear mind over into dementia.  The family had to stay with him in the hospital overnight to ensure the night nurses wouldn't give him the sleeping medication that caused him to go downhill and do so poorly.  It took a long time for it to wear off after he got out of the hospital too.

Having said that, however, I am so sorry that you are experiencing this, Lauren. I know it is very distressing to see a loved one this way.

{{{{{{{{{Lauren}}}}}}}}}}} 

Hi Lauren,

My heart goes out to you.

I had this same thing happen to me with my mum, different situation, but all the same heart wrenching. I will say this though, be thankful every day that she is your "Great grandmother", and that you had all these years with her eventhough you are still young.

My mum was only 48.

You are a beautiful person with a god given gift, use it to your best advantage....coz your worth it.

 

All the flumpy love in the world

 

flumpyxxx   

(((((((((((((((((((Lauren))))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry...be thankful to have had her in your life!  What a beautiful poem. 

 

Thinking of you......

 

Julia

Hi Lauren,

If your Grandma is taking medication like morphine it does tend to give them hallucinations.  It may also be dementia sweetie from old age.  Try to spend every moment you can with her and remember all the good times as every day is a gift. I hope she is not suffering in anyway. My nanna is the only grandparent I have alive and she is 92.  She lives 1300kms away and I want to make sure i visit her this time as I think she has decided she is ready. Pray to your HP to give you and your grandfather the strength to get through this.  Luv Leo xx

Can you have the family consult a doctor.  My mother went into dementia when she went into the hospital. There are many medications now that can help out it is not as hopeless as it once was.  I think it can make one feel very helpless to be around someone with dementia but you can consult a medical professional, not blame yourself and also know that sometimes people with dementia go on a long long time (remember Ronald Reagan) it is not necessarily a sign that death is imminent, ill health yes, death not necessarily.

 

maresie.