I went to my home ftf meeting tonight. and as usual I heard just what I needed to hear on many levels. The one thing that struck me the most was as one lady shared she said that she's never lonely anymore. But in her 30 year marriage she was always lonely! That is just what I had be thinking about today. I love to be alone and I'm not lonely. I'm growing all the time and really don't want to go back to the confines of my marriage. Even with my husband finally working his program I don't want to be married anymore. The world is all new to me now. I was so depressed over Christmas but with the New Year upon us I feel ready to take on the world. Everything is different. The music I've known for years has different meaning now, I eat differently, I'm relaxed and I yearn to get home every day to my fun little apartment. I'm making new friends without the judgement of my husband. I know now what is mine to own and what is none of my affair. Thank you to all of you that make Ala-non what is to us who need it. I'm taking everyday as One Day at a Time, praying alot and looking forward to a new year. My God it can only get better! Whitie

Just as you heard what you needed to hear at your f2f meeting...I heard what I needed from your post.  I am in the midst of a separation from my husband of 24 years who is in recovery.  He found someone in his program he 'connected' with and I did not want to live with the insanity any longer.  Christmas was awful for me (first year with out him) but today I talked to my sponsor who showed me it's time for me to start filling my void.  No more self pity, it is only destructive to me.  I am looking forward to the new year and my new life.

Michelle

I loved your post. Glad you have your own apt. Do you have a couple kittens to keep things alive? (c: yep I relate. I don't feel lonely this time at all either. It is awful to live with someone who treats you like furniture huh? anyway good for you!! Tell me more about apt. job? love,debilyn

Debilyn, I'm soooo glad to see you back here on the boards. I missed you. My little one bedroom apt. is in Hillsboro. I'm in the middle of the busiest part of town by the Max line. I can ride the Max to my meetings as it stays lighter longer in the evening. I'm still practicing yoga, expanding my knitting skills, reading tons,playing on this computer and seeing my son as much as I can. He's with Dad during his break at U of O. He loves school, Thank God! I hope you are feeling better. Your aniamls need you you know. Take care of yourself! Your Oregon friend in recovery...... Whitie

Hi Whitie

 

Happy New Years

I too am alone but I am sure not lonely either.

I am alone in my aoartment and it sure beats being together with my abusive alcoholic.

I have friends and families hobbies and my job

Heres to a 2006 filled with growth and happiness

megan