well its 10:30am i finally got some sleep at 5am. then guess who shows up here with flowers? like those will make everything better. i told him to leave me alone i am done. then he became ignorant. so he is making it easier for me to see how much of an a$$ he really is. usually he cries and begs for me back. not today. i threw the flowers out. i have  a migraine this morning and am not going on my trip. i dont feel comfortable around those relatives and now just feel a whole lot worse. i dont want to put myself through more pain by going there. the only reason i was going was because my immediate family (mom and brother) are going and of course i want to be with them on christmas. i am fine here alone, better then i would be around people that dont make me feel good about myself anyways. i'll be home with my rabbit and hp. i will be ok. it hurts like hell but i will be ok.

Yes (((not))) it will be OK because you have chosen it to be OK.. :) You do whatever it is that makes you feel better. Just remember, don't say anything that you are not going to follow through on. Saying things just to get a reaction is only creating drama. Chances are you won't get the reaction you want anyway. Be good to you! Christy (Cjo)

my boyfriend once showed up with a candle when he had smashed the car up.  I was speechless.  Now I have more limits in place I would not be seduced in that way.

Maresie.

Good Morning, I am glad you got some sleep after all. Stay strong today, do something for you. I will be thinking about you. Lynn

http://www.123greetings.com/view/7AT41224095151925 go to this address, there is something there for you Lynn

((((((((((notsonew))))))))))) Thought you could use it today.  Be gentle with yourself.

Hugs Mary