Well as of today my life has completely taken a different path and I should be jumping for joy - but instead I am bawling my eyes out in exhaustion, frustration and being overwhelmed.
I bought a swim school today - my own business. My own opportunity to build my life and make a name for myself but I am so so so so tired. I am hoping that this too will pass and I will be happy with having the one thing I dreamed of having my entire life. I own my own business.
I should be leaping through the roof. If only I could go back three months and feel the way I felt then when I knew this was going to happen....
kitty said
Dec 4, 2005
That's great! Congradulations!!!
I find that changes are scary, I cry for all sorts of things... tears are the river of life shed in joy, pain, relief, fear.
Give yourself a break, don't "should" on your feelings, just have a good cry! You'll feel better afterwards. I like to cry in a real hot bath, the water is soothing & you don't have to waste tissues & you feel better & relaxed when you are all clean.
Sounds like "you are growing," like TT said, I'm sure you will be able to handle it all fine, don't stress out about the future.
I remind myself often these days, I can only tackle one thing at a time!
love, -K
wille said
Dec 4, 2005
kudos Cyn
u r gonna make it happen!
namaste!!
As my ex and I actually decide 2 call
us over between us - I realize I had
been footing the bill$$ and I ask him to
chip in on us. He always said He would
and one day I ask when. He was gone..
And of course it was my fault. I even got
him out of jail for dui related charges.
lol
The three c-s really help me through
this to not b a stinger - as well as chanting
still yet the serenity prayer.
Oceans of love ur ways
\/\/ille
notsonew1111 said
Dec 5, 2005
YYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY I am so happy for you. look at where you are headed--- a big success. pat yourself on the back you deserve it and everything you worked so hard for
sandie123 said
Dec 5, 2005
Congratulations!!!! That is such great news.
I am so happy for you... give it time to sink in. Sometimes new things seem scary and that is enought to throw our excitment off. This is a new adventure and a dream come true! Just take things slow and don't push yourself.
Remember to keep the focus on you and take it one day at a time.
Good luck in your new adventure!
Linda
Rebecca said
Dec 5, 2005
cyn,
im soooo proud of you! i have a feeling its not the "owning your own business" that your crying over... but the loss of your ex and the realisation that you dont have him to share it all with! he is proud of you too i would say...he's just living in a different world for now! you have all of us in here... we are your family too. and we understand remember. its at all the huge occassions in our life that we are emotional... just cry out.
i went to a family gathering for a birthday saturday night and spent the night staring wistfully at happy couples feeding each other, snuggling up 2gether and laughing happily when i was dying on the inside. im what any psychologist would call "the sad clown" i hide my emotions well. i can be the laugh and soul of the party when really im crying on the inside and trying to hide the pain.
keep your spirit up cyn, im always hear if you wanna chat and remember..... when your sad.. this too shall pass !
Well as of today my life has completely taken a different path and I should be jumping for joy - but instead I am bawling my eyes out in exhaustion, frustration and being overwhelmed.
I bought a swim school today - my own business. My own opportunity to build my life and make a name for myself but I am so so so so tired. I am hoping that this too will pass and I will be happy with having the one thing I dreamed of having my entire life. I own my own business.
I should be leaping through the roof. If only I could go back three months and feel the way I felt then when I knew this was going to happen....
That's great! Congradulations!!!
I find that changes are scary, I cry for all sorts of things... tears are the river of life shed in joy, pain, relief, fear.
Give yourself a break, don't "should" on your feelings, just have a good cry! You'll feel better afterwards. I like to cry in a real hot bath, the water is soothing & you don't have to waste tissues & you feel better & relaxed when you are all clean.
Sounds like "you are growing," like TT said, I'm sure you will be able to handle it all fine, don't stress out about the future.
I remind myself often these days, I can only tackle one thing at a time!
love, -K
YYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY I am so happy for you. look at where you are headed--- a big success. pat yourself on the back you deserve it and everything you worked so hard for
cyn,
im soooo proud of you! i have a feeling its not the "owning your own business" that your crying over... but the loss of your ex and the realisation that you dont have him to share it all with! he is proud of you too i would say...he's just living in a different world for now! you have all of us in here... we are your family too. and we understand remember. its at all the huge occassions in our life that we are emotional... just cry out.
i went to a family gathering for a birthday saturday night and spent the night staring wistfully at happy couples feeding each other, snuggling up 2gether and laughing happily when i was dying on the inside. im what any psychologist would call "the sad clown" i hide my emotions well. i can be the laugh and soul of the party when really im crying on the inside and trying to hide the pain.
keep your spirit up cyn, im always hear if you wanna chat and remember..... when your sad.. this too shall pass !
rebecca xxxx