These are a few lyrics to songs..that well explain my life story...   Pat Benatar
Suffer The Little Children

by Unknown

Sweet melissa, I often pray for you
I hope your suffering was brief
I hope the angels that watch over all little children
Came for you and took you someplace beautiful and sweet
Aahh..
Suffer the little children

Dear melissa, I often think of you
Everytime I hold my baby in my arms
I say a prayer for your mama and daddy too
I know they miss you, miss you since you’re gone

Suffer the little children
At the hands of evil men
No baby dolls, no teddy bears
No lullabies for them
Every mother’s nightmare
Will it ever end
Suffer the little children
At the hands of evil men

You who done the deed better do some prayin’ too
Better hope that god’s forgivin’ like they say
Cause somewhere, somebody keeps a list
Of the evils that men do
An’ your name’s right up there
I heard `em say
Aahh..

Suffer the little children
At the hands of evil men
No baby dolls, no teddy bears
No lullabies for them
Every mother’s nightmare
Will it ever end
Suffer the little children
At the hands of evil men

 

Pink
Family Portrait

by Unknown

Mama please stop cryin´
I can´t stand the sound
Your pain is painful and it´s
tearing me down
I hear glasses breaking
As I sit up in my bed
I told Dad you didn´t mean
Those nasty things you said
You fight about money
About me & my brother
And this I come home to
This is my shelter
It ain´t easy, growin´ up in WW3
Never knowin´ what love could be
You´ll see, I don´t want love to destroy me
Like it has done my family

CHORUS
Can we work it out
Can we be a family
I promise I´ll be better
Mommy I´ll do anything
Can we work it out
Can we be a family
I promise I´ll be better
Daddy please don´t leave

Daddy please stop yelling
I can´t stand the sound
Make mama stop cryin´
´Cause I need you around
My mama she loves you
No matter what she says is true
I know that she hurts you
But remember I love you too!
I ran away today, ran from the noise
Ran away (ran away)
Don´t wanna go back to that place
But don´t have no choice, no way
It ain´t easy, growin´ up in WW3
Never knowin´ what love could be
But I´ve seen, I don´t want love to destroy me
Like it has done my family

Repeat CHORUS

In our family portrait
We look pretty happy
Let´s play pretend, let´s act like it
Comes naturally
I don´t wanna have to split the holidays
I don´t want two addresses
I don´t want a stepbrother anyway
And I don´t want my mom to have to change her last name!

Repeat CHORUS

Mama I´ll be nicer
I´ll be so much better
I´ll tell my brother
I won´t spill the milk at dinner
I´ll be so much better
I´ll do everything right
I´ll be your little girl forever
I´ll go to sleep at night
Daddy don´t leave... daddy don´t leave

Evanescence
Hello

by Evanescence

Playground school bell rings again
rain clouds come to play again
has no one told you she's not breathing?
hello i'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
hello

if i smile and don't believe
soon i know i'll wake from this dream
don't try to fix me i'm not broken
hello i'm the lie living for you so you can hide
don't cry

suddenly i know i'm not sleeping
hello i'm still here
all that's left of yesterday

 

 

Linkin Park
Breaking The Habit

by Linkin Park

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not allright
So I'm
Breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be allright
So I'm
Breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be allright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

My Chemical Romance
Helena

by Gerard Arthur Way

Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Came a time
When every star falls brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Thanks for these, Lauren!  Sometime poetry or songs are so much more powerful in capturing the real feelings than all the attempts to explain!  They speak so directly to the heart, by-passing that dangerous circuitry known as "figuring things out"!  I've spent a lot of useless time trying to "figure things out" when really what I needed to do was just feel!

Thanks again!

~seachange

Lauren ashley,

Pink's song, Family Portrait, reminds me of my home life somewhat. I like to listen to Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park when I'm mad. I understand why these songs touch you heart because they touch my heart too. Keep good lyrics like these and your poems coming. Your posts are always good.

Lanchas

Those songs are some of my favorite and I can listen to them, but there are two songs that are really hard for me to listen to.  One is Scars by Papa Roach, I can listen to it, but I can't think of the words and relate them because then I'll be a pile of mush within 3 minutes.  The other one, Kelly Clarkson's Because of you.  I can't listen to it because I'll bawl my eyes out over it.  I'll be just bawling forever if I hear that song, so I avoid it.  It beautifully put together and sounds good, but the words are really really powerful.  Here's the lyrics to those songs.

Because of You

by Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Scars

by Papa Roach

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus]

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

Music is such a powerful thing.  I don't bring it up much to my alanon friends because I wasn't sure we were allowed to talk about it, because of the "conference approved literature rule."

Alanis Morrisette got me through the break up with my last alcoholic...2 songs in particular are Bent For You & Sorry to Myself...Many people still identify her as being angry, but she really isn't.  I personally think she's brilliant and feel like her music can really speak to many of us.

Bent For You

you're unsure and you're not ready so that must mean I want you
you're unavailable and disinterested and to you I look for comfort

a million times in a million ways I will try to change you
a million months and a million days I'll try to somehow convince you

I have waited for you and adjusted for you and I'm done
I have deferred to you and enabled you and I'm done

you're too young or you're too old or you're simply not inclined
you're asleep or you're withholding be that my cue to crave you

several times in several ways I'll try to squeeze love from you
several hours and several ways I'll feast on scraps thrown from you

I have bent for you and I've deprived for you and I'm done
I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I'm done
I have stifled for you and I've compromised for you and I'm done
I have silenced for you and sacrificed for you and I'm done

it won't be long before I am reclaimed
it won't take long and I'll be on path again
it won't be easy for us to disengage
I'm at the end of self deprivation stage

you're afraid of every woman afraid of your inner workings
you cringe at the thought of living under the same roof as me god and everything

a million times and a million ways I've tried to alter to match you
several times every several days I've tried to uncrush on you

Sorry To Myself

For hearing all my doubts so selectively and
For continuing my numbing love endlessly
For helping you and myself: not even considering
For beating myself up and over-functioning
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me
For letting you decide if I indeed was desirable
For my self-love being so embarassingly conditional
for denying myself to somehow make us compatible
for trying to fit a rectangle into a hole
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
For blaming myself for your unhappiness
for my impatience when I was perfect where I was
Ignoring all the signs that I was not ready,
For expecting myself to be where you wanted me to be
To whom do I owe the first apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me And
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself...
Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter
I would've naturally loved the former
For ignoring you: my highest voices
For smiling when my strife was all too obvious
For being so disassociated from my body,
for not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing.
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
I'm sorry to myself
My apologies begin here before everybody else
I'm sorry to myself
For treating me worse than I would anybody else
 

Now tell me these don't fit.

Yes..lyrics are healing to the heart..I am glad you shared some with me as well...

Lauren~