I sit in a room full of people, and still I stare at the wall
I have no close friends…all are acquaintances
I am scared to trust, for my heart will not survive another hurt
I am alone,for nobody understands me
They see me as content, full of life, and soo vibrant
I am not like that,I hide behind my shadow, for what they don’t know won’t hurt me
My heart has a big hole that can’t be filled
I want my life back,the way it was when I was happy
I miss my brother and my mom
But for how long?
I can’t bring them back,oh but I wish I could
If I can I certainly would
I am crying now
Lauren~
megan said
Nov 26, 2005
That is a beautiful poem Lauren Ashley and sad.
(((Laurenashley)))
You are not alone, your HP is with you as are we...
Megan
bobump said
Nov 26, 2005
Lauren,
While my situation is so different and I can only imagine some of the pains you must feel, I'm glad to see that you can use your talents to let those feelings out and express them.
lil bump
TLC2 said
Nov 26, 2005
That was beautiful Lauren, I have lost most of my family, and find it so hard to trust too, but we are never really alone. We have each other here,and lots and lots of friends who understand us and really care! and most important, our HPs! We all have our 'down' times, and there is always someone here to cheer us on, to believe in us. I am so thankful for the wonderful people I have 'met' here. It sure has made a difference in my life since I started coming to this board. Keep on writing the beautiful poetry!! You are a very special person, and so talented! Love Ya, TLC
wille said
Nov 26, 2005
Hi L
I am a returning member of or to alanon.
My Ex brought me back.
Rather, the behaviour displays made me
self talk me back into alanon. This ia a / the
proximal time, however, my family lost our
ma, as she crossed over to the other side.
My family is still healing, however we are
coming to terms with ourselves, our healing
and I keep sharing the serenity pray and
alanon steps with them. Mostly by action
or by living out o d a a t process. It's safe
here to one day at a time it - sometimes it
truly is one second at a time, just the same.
Most recently my family had several members
cross over to the other side. There is / was no
thing I could do about it. They just take off - cya
and bye bye as well as my ex, who I had to say
later to.
My thoughts r with ya as u make ur way through this,
I have gone to sleep many nights chanting the serenity prayer
in that I did not know whut else to think. Regards and oceans of love, \/\/ille
Jeannie said
Nov 26, 2005
((((Lauren))))
nmike said
Nov 27, 2005
Laren ashley,
You are not alone - you have us and your HP? How sad for you to miss your family. Trust might be about protecting yourself with stronger boundaries. You sound like me. I use to take everything that happened or was said straight to the core. With the help of boundaries I can be more of an observer for some things. And for those like your brother and mother, boundaries can help soften the impact.
Hope this helps. Keep coming back.
In support,
Nancy
angelinme908 said
Nov 27, 2005
I feel alone too. But we need to remember that we really are not. Though it is hard to trust others, if we can, surely we will be the better for it.
I am alone
I sit in a room full of people, and still I stare at the wall
I have no close friends…all are acquaintances
I am scared to trust, for my heart will not survive another hurt
I am alone,for nobody understands me
They see me as content, full of life, and soo vibrant
I am not like that,I hide behind my shadow, for what they don’t know won’t hurt me
My heart has a big hole that can’t be filled
I want my life back,the way it was when I was happy
I miss my brother and my mom
But for how long?
I can’t bring them back,oh but I wish I could
If I can I certainly would
I am crying now
Lauren~
That is a beautiful poem Lauren Ashley and sad.
(((Laurenashley)))
You are not alone, your HP is with you as are we...
Megan
Lauren,
While my situation is so different and I can only imagine some of the pains you must feel, I'm glad to see that you can use your talents to let those feelings out and express them.
lil bump
((((Lauren))))
Laren ashley,
You are not alone - you have us and your HP? How sad for you to miss your family. Trust might be about protecting yourself with stronger boundaries. You sound like me. I use to take everything that happened or was said straight to the core. With the help of boundaries I can be more of an observer for some things. And for those like your brother and mother, boundaries can help soften the impact.
Hope this helps. Keep coming back.
In support,
Nancy
I feel alone too. But we need to remember that we really are not. Though it is hard to trust others, if we can, surely we will be the better for it.
(((Laurenash))) Thank you for the beautiful poem.
Angelina