Today started out great, it's sorta gone down hill. I've been staying at my mom's, I want the company as much as she does & we love each other so much.
It's just hard, for years she begged me to get therapy, here I go off to the therapist, taking her along with me, but she over reacts sometimes... I used to avoid the computer like the plague. Now I'm on it every chance I get.
I don't really appreciate her being salty with me, being in the al-anon rooms, my therapist told her & even the lawyer, it is harder on "the kids" even though I'm pushing 40. I just want peace. I wish I could just curl up & sleep for a year - I'm passed the breaking point over & over. I am tired & the chronic pain is getting old.
My step-dad is such a jerk, he can't even follow the simplest, oldest house rule we have ever had -- call before you come home - cuz the dogs are often in the driveway, it's common courtesy, my mom & I both startle easily. I'm passed wanting to "hurt" him but damn... I guess I have to keep praying to let the anger go, so the 'wrath of God' will rain on him.
I just want serenity -- quiet, peaceful times. I deserve it. I'm tired, maybe it's just today... I'm tired of fighting. Crying is cathartic, maybe a good cry & a nap, the stress is getting to me.
kitty said
Nov 16, 2005
Walking a delicate line between doing pretty great & falling apart. Maybe it's just he "new". i read once that fear is usually a precursor to some wonderful thing about to happen. I need that about now!
Jeannie said
Nov 16, 2005
(((((Kitty))))
Hang in there Kitty, believe it or not, your doing great!
A nap and a good cry can do wonders for stress. Also if you have the Ocean near you, screaming over the waves is so releasing.
Love Jeannie
bobump said
Nov 16, 2005
{{{{{{{Kitty}}}}}}}}
Sorry today was hard on ya. In addition to keeping your day in my mind, In my next quiet moment when I can truly speak to my HP, I'll ask that he sends you that serenity.
Bob
leo said
Nov 17, 2005
Hi Kitty,
Full Moon at the moment let yourself cry. Your emotions will probably settle down in a couple of days. Have a look to see when we get the new moon it signifies new beginnings. Hope you and your Mum both have a great week. Luv Leo x
Today started out great, it's sorta gone down hill. I've been staying at my mom's, I want the company as much as she does & we love each other so much.
It's just hard, for years she begged me to get therapy, here I go off to the therapist, taking her along with me, but she over reacts sometimes... I used to avoid the computer like the plague. Now I'm on it every chance I get.
I don't really appreciate her being salty with me, being in the al-anon rooms, my therapist told her & even the lawyer, it is harder on "the kids" even though I'm pushing 40. I just want peace. I wish I could just curl up & sleep for a year - I'm passed the breaking point over & over. I am tired & the chronic pain is getting old.
My step-dad is such a jerk, he can't even follow the simplest, oldest house rule we have ever had -- call before you come home - cuz the dogs are often in the driveway, it's common courtesy, my mom & I both startle easily. I'm passed wanting to "hurt" him but damn... I guess I have to keep praying to let the anger go, so the 'wrath of God' will rain on him.
I just want serenity -- quiet, peaceful times. I deserve it. I'm tired, maybe it's just today... I'm tired of fighting. Crying is cathartic, maybe a good cry & a nap, the stress is getting to me.
(((((Kitty))))
Hang in there Kitty, believe it or not, your doing great!
A nap and a good cry can do wonders for stress. Also if you have the Ocean near you, screaming over the waves is so releasing.
Love Jeannie
Hi Kitty,
Full Moon at the moment let yourself cry. Your emotions will probably settle down in a couple of days. Have a look to see when we get the new moon it signifies new beginnings. Hope you and your Mum both have a great week. Luv Leo x