The Memories are Fading Away

You held me in your arms when I was first born,

you snuggled me tight so I would be warm’

You told me you loved me and would never leave my side

I should have known you lied

Now I am sitting here thinking of why I believed all those things

 When they weren’t even true

Maybe it was because I actually did not know you

You didn’t have to lie to me, you could have told me you didn’t want to stay

I would have easily said okay

I still remember the night you left me

You told me you loved me, and that you would be back

I stopped waiting and got on with my life so how’s that?

I can barely remember you; my mind suddenly starts to drift away

I can’t even remember one word you used to say,

My heart won’t let me it says no, no way

How could you hurt me like you did?

I thought I was your little kid

Knowing you were gone was the hardest for me

I was soo blind that I could not see

I think to myself that I have a good life and I survived the worst

Anything now that I overcome I’ll remember the first

 

Lauren

(2000)

 

 

Dearest Brother

 

Dearest Matthew I love you with all of my heart

I am sorry we are drifting further and further apart

 

Don’t ever forget that I love you so very much

You are always on my mind during the day

I just care for you is all I can say

 

I am sorry I left you like I did

You know too that I am just a kid

I know I made the biggest mistake, but what else could I do?

My life was at stake

 

Lauren

(2002)

 

Wow lauren powerful poems :) i love them !!! keep em coming!!!

 

 

 

kerry

ty kerry

 

Yes, Lauren, yes...it's happening in your writing...one day at a time friend, one day at a time....remember to let your soul soak in the warmth of the sun, the breeze on your cheeks, and the sound of a singing bird as each new day comes too. 

Your fellow poet...

Satori :)

 

Thank you, those were beautiful.

Thank you for posting about being abandoned by a parent. I too was abandoned, and I hold so much resentment and anger towards her, even now, 28 years later. I love that you work your program through your poetry... i am interested to see what you come up with once you start creating ones with program undertones. take care, aron

Eloquent, reaching, emotional resonance, a blessed & gifted creature you are, touched by god.

in love, -kitty light