last night i think i hit my bottom. my a hurt me so much by lying to me about where he was going. in the end today he told me he just wanted to go party with the guys and lied to me about going to a hockey game instead so we wouldnt fight. anyways... i was horrified he was cheating and i was just losing it. so my best friend came over and we just left and went to my first f2f meeting. yay i did it. it felt good and my mind was occupied on somehting different then worrying for an hour and a half. so hope i continue to go. maybe hp sent this my way so i could get the guts to go to the meeting. ty to all who spoke with me last night and helped me to calm down. i still need your prayers.

 

                                notsonew1111

It sucks and I'm sorry you had to hit the pain of your bottom.

What's good as that for many of us, the bottom was the first step in seeking Alanon and our recovery.  I hope you keep coming.

Bob

Well not it takes what it takes to get us here, am impressed and pleased you went to your first meeting.  Hope u go back and find a few more.   Love Louise

 

(((((notsonew))))),

   Congratulations.  I hope you keep going to f2f.  You will learn that you can be happy.  Meeting new people and getting support is what you need.  Keep working the program.

                                                  hugs,

                                                    danz

Good for you,,,,,you are only one of millions who have in the darkest depths of their lives and sheer desparation walked through those doors of alanon. I know I was one. I had been to the doctor telling him I was crazy,,,(as my A said I was), and from there I went to a councelor, whom had never dealt with alcoholism before. I found that totally useless for me, as she did not have an iota of what I had been experiencing.I had made numerous phone calls to AA, and each and every time they had said go to alanon. I had picked up the phone book numerous times, but this one day I had had enough and called. The first meeting I went to , I cried,,the second I cried,,,etc etc,,,not hearing much of anything, and wondering why these people kept talking around the table while I was just bawling my eyes out. Through my blubbering, I heard a few things, and when I left I was given a new comer package. I went home and read everything they had given, and there in black and white was "me". This intriqued me so I went back,,,and each time I went back,,I left feeling a bit better. When I started to listen I heard people telling "my" story they were actually mirroring my life, what I had been experiencing, what I had been doing, what I had been saying etc etc. I found out I was not alone anymore. I felt free to say whatever was bothering me and all the demons I had stuffed so far down within me.  I was going in the beginning to find out how to get my A to stop drinking, and it was going to be temporary. HUH! new meaning to temporary,,,,,almost 6 years later. I am so glad you went, and in saying that,,,I will share........Please try at least 6 meetings if you are not satisfied ,,,we will gladly refund your misery.