YES, I have been Blessed by this site/Board. I love this place, it has helped me immeasurably, inexplicably. The reponses to posts, even smply writing & venting, not to mention attending mtgs on-line, I have found to be more effective & profound than any F2F I have gone to but we are all different and I know I am a weird one -- being called that in 4th grade & being hurt by it, I looked it up... it means extra ordinary. That was ok with me back then. Being "normal" was a dirty word for my family, making A's in honor's classes weren't good enough, I had to make 100%'s.
The chat rm is odd @ times we are all like hurt dogs (being abused) - & we bite back when hurt & irritable -- our moods within in ourselves, just like our relationships with others have cycles (as in Nature) they ebb & flow.
Now back to prayer & allowing myself to be moved by HP, as HP hasn't given up on me, not once. I thought my words were falling on deaf ears, but it was in my immaturity. God wants us to choose - he/she/it takes nothing from us, we must surrender it unto "the force". I had to "give" to HP I had to demand HP receive it from me, not weakly hope for anything to be taken.
God wants us to surrender... our broken hearts, our contrite souls... I know I am free, now to integrate that - to actualize it as a part of my life -- just like I felt when I was 3, 5, 'cause by seven, the age of reason... & all the "if you understand, than u must be understanding" I had some real heady lessons going on in my life.
Every Blessing is a curse, like a sword - maybe that kept me in "martyr mode" too long. I did try to talk to my mother but she lacked compassionate understanding, she figured we was "disciplinning me (in the Greek, it means to educate) by talking at me to death".
Now wonder I felt misunderstood, she didn't want to hear me or she wasn't able to relate - surely she figured, 'hell kid, I'm not beating you like I was, what's ur f**king problem - u whiney lil sensitive thing'.
I would say, you "allowed me to be sensitive, you encouraged that artistic expression & now your complaining or blaming me for wanting to express myself?"
Life is one irony after another... and God DOES have a sense of humor.
Anyway, I appreciate being able to vent on posts (& in ch mtgs) -- at least I do get the feeling, I am appreciated & understood... I hope you all can feel that the love resonates & reflects back.
I'm not out to offend anyone, but I have to get over my own sickness, this is a free country, i will continue to use my Freedom of Speech.
tyvm, a recovering individual
marmare said
Nov 12, 2005
Thank you, I read your posting and have to be reminded that God does have a sense of humor, when I am wanting to think different I only need to hear a child laugh or to look at a platypus! LOL
Hugs Mary
kissers said
Nov 12, 2005
I am weird too. People that choose to stay in our lives have to accept us the way we are. Everyone is weird! Acceptance of self is the key to serenity. Cheers to us weirdos! LOL
browneyes said
Nov 12, 2005
((((((((((((Kitty)))))))))))))))
Thanks for sharing your true self with such honesty. That takes a lot of courage and strength in my humble opinion. And I agree with kissers, everybody is weird in their own way, that is what makes us all unique people!!
Take care
Julie
bobump said
Nov 12, 2005
I've always had felt that some of the things that made me different were assets myself.
Your mentioning of God had a sense of humor made me laugh. I've offended others with my sense of humor. I try to use logic with them. Some get it, some don't.
Do you believe we were made in God's image? the answer is usually yes.
Do you believe that having a sense of humor is a good quality for one to have?
If so....why the heck do you think God wouldn't be able to take a joke?
YES, I have been Blessed by this site/Board. I love this place, it has helped me immeasurably, inexplicably. The reponses to posts, even smply writing & venting, not to mention attending mtgs on-line, I have found to be more effective & profound than any F2F I have gone to but we are all different and I know I am a weird one -- being called that in 4th grade & being hurt by it, I looked it up... it means extra ordinary. That was ok with me back then. Being "normal" was a dirty word for my family, making A's in honor's classes weren't good enough, I had to make 100%'s.
The chat rm is odd @ times we are all like hurt dogs (being abused) - & we bite back when hurt & irritable -- our moods within in ourselves, just like our relationships with others have cycles (as in Nature) they ebb & flow.
Now back to prayer & allowing myself to be moved by HP, as HP hasn't given up on me, not once. I thought my words were falling on deaf ears, but it was in my immaturity. God wants us to choose - he/she/it takes nothing from us, we must surrender it unto "the force". I had to "give" to HP I had to demand HP receive it from me, not weakly hope for anything to be taken.
God wants us to surrender... our broken hearts, our contrite souls... I know I am free, now to integrate that - to actualize it as a part of my life -- just like I felt when I was 3, 5, 'cause by seven, the age of reason... & all the "if you understand, than u must be understanding" I had some real heady lessons going on in my life.
Every Blessing is a curse, like a sword - maybe that kept me in "martyr mode" too long. I did try to talk to my mother but she lacked compassionate understanding, she figured we was "disciplinning me (in the Greek, it means to educate) by talking at me to death".
Now wonder I felt misunderstood, she didn't want to hear me or she wasn't able to relate - surely she figured, 'hell kid, I'm not beating you like I was, what's ur f**king problem - u whiney lil sensitive thing'.
I would say, you "allowed me to be sensitive, you encouraged that artistic expression & now your complaining or blaming me for wanting to express myself?"
Life is one irony after another... and God DOES have a sense of humor.
Anyway, I appreciate being able to vent on posts (& in ch mtgs) -- at least I do get the feeling, I am appreciated & understood... I hope you all can feel that the love resonates & reflects back.
I'm not out to offend anyone, but I have to get over my own sickness, this is a free country, i will continue to use my Freedom of Speech.
tyvm, a recovering individual
Thank you, I read your posting and have to be reminded that God does have a sense of humor, when I am wanting to think different I only need to hear a child laugh or to look at a platypus! LOL
Hugs Mary
((((((((((((Kitty)))))))))))))))
Thanks for sharing your true self with such honesty. That takes a lot of courage and strength in my humble opinion. And I agree with kissers, everybody is weird in their own way, that is what makes us all unique people!!
Take care
Julie
I've always had felt that some of the things that made me different were assets myself.
Your mentioning of God had a sense of humor made me laugh. I've offended others with my sense of humor. I try to use logic with them. Some get it, some don't.
Do you believe we were made in God's image? the answer is usually yes.
Do you believe that having a sense of humor is a good quality for one to have?
If so....why the heck do you think God wouldn't be able to take a joke?
:)
Yes my views are sometimes twisted. LOL
Bob