last night i looked over my diary from over the past two years. the only stuff i ever wrote in it was all the lousy stuff my a did to me and how lousy i felt and how my life was so wrong. the thoughts of when i was suicidal. basically the whole thing was written about my a and how i let everything he ever did make me miserable. so i sat down, relived those moments and thoughts by reading them. then one by one i ripped each page up and threw it all up. i said this is the past. im letting it all go now. im moving on. so now i can not go back and read about the miserable times. that is one less place i can go to relive my horrible past. i am trying to recover now. starting a new journal. this journal may have notes of hurt and venting of my a but it will also have notes about me and my gratitudes, blessings, achievements, improvements. it will help me not hinder me. ty
notsonew1111
captcodee said
Nov 10, 2005
GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!
In my journal, I always end with a prayer to god. So for example; an average entry will look like this:
Today was blah blah blah
Something that happened today was blah blah blah
reflection...
THEN:
Dear God:
Thank you for ______________. Please help me with _____________.... then I ramble on and on.
After I started that format, i noticed that I felt bad to ask my HP for help without thanking him for somthing first.
This is what works for me.
Aron
sandie123 said
Nov 10, 2005
That is so great!!!
I wish you the best with your new journal and you have motivated me to start one.
Thanks~
Linda
nmike said
Nov 10, 2005
Hi notsonew1111,
Good for you. I have many notebooks with my journal entries. My project will be to do the same as you and rip those pages up. I know when I read my journals it is also all about "him" and ain't it just awful. I guess it served it's purpose but now it is time for me to move on.
I have colored pencils, glue, scotch tape, etc. I draw in color, cut pictures out, write outside the lines, and write down quotes that speak to me. I list my gratitudes and there are many. I have started my 4th step with resentments and fears (this is harder). But also with my 4th step I list my accomplisments like figuring out the computer by myself, driving home at night and I have a list of people who have been nice or helpful to me like the woman who saved my place in line and a friend that sent me flowers. This helps me so much to put the focus on me and my recovery.
In support,
Nancy
sunny1 said
Nov 10, 2005
I too have kept a diary or journal from since I can remember. I too look back and read and sometimes wonder wow I have come a long way since then, I too like to let it go but for me I have a burning ritual. I light candles and burn the pages in the wood stove. Has proved to be very good healing for me. I have not always kept my books up to date. I sometimes find it hard to find the "quite" time i need to write. But I did just today buy a brand new journal a really nice one that I picked out at winners and will take with me to my retreat this weekend.
last night i looked over my diary from over the past two years. the only stuff i ever wrote in it was all the lousy stuff my a did to me and how lousy i felt and how my life was so wrong. the thoughts of when i was suicidal. basically the whole thing was written about my a and how i let everything he ever did make me miserable. so i sat down, relived those moments and thoughts by reading them. then one by one i ripped each page up and threw it all up. i said this is the past. im letting it all go now. im moving on. so now i can not go back and read about the miserable times. that is one less place i can go to relive my horrible past. i am trying to recover now. starting a new journal. this journal may have notes of hurt and venting of my a but it will also have notes about me and my gratitudes, blessings, achievements, improvements. it will help me not hinder me. ty
notsonew1111
GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!
In my journal, I always end with a prayer to god. So for example; an average entry will look like this:
Today was blah blah blah
Something that happened today was blah blah blah
reflection...
THEN:
Dear God:
Thank you for ______________. Please help me with _____________.... then I ramble on and on.
After I started that format, i noticed that I felt bad to ask my HP for help without thanking him for somthing first.
This is what works for me.
Hi notsonew1111,
Good for you. I have many notebooks with my journal entries. My project will be to do the same as you and rip those pages up. I know when I read my journals it is also all about "him" and ain't it just awful. I guess it served it's purpose but now it is time for me to move on.
I have colored pencils, glue, scotch tape, etc. I draw in color, cut pictures out, write outside the lines, and write down quotes that speak to me. I list my gratitudes and there are many. I have started my 4th step with resentments and fears (this is harder). But also with my 4th step I list my accomplisments like figuring out the computer by myself, driving home at night and I have a list of people who have been nice or helpful to me like the woman who saved my place in line and a friend that sent me flowers. This helps me so much to put the focus on me and my recovery.
In support,
Nancy
I too have kept a diary or journal from since I can remember. I too look back and read and sometimes wonder wow I have come a long way since then, I too like to let it go but for me I have a burning ritual. I light candles and burn the pages in the wood stove. Has proved to be very good healing for me. I have not always kept my books up to date. I sometimes find it hard to find the "quite" time i need to write. But I did just today buy a brand new journal a really nice one that I picked out at winners and will take with me to my retreat this weekend.
Wish me luck....
Sunny1