Lost in Silence

 

 

I am lost in my own world forever

Life only gets worse

I try and try, but then I curse

I am not happy in my skin

I just want to be soo thin

I have words, but am unheard

I am dying slowly of a broken heart

For I did not want this life from the start

I could have been with God only if my mom had not had me

I think that is where I want to be

Nobody understands who I really am

And I don’t give a damn

I want to just close my eyes,and let it be al over

For my alcoholic will never be sober

I am tired of being strong

For it has been so very long

I want to go away to a far away land

Where I am alive, and can feel my own hand

 

 

Laurenash

 

 

 

Lauren,

writing is a great way for you to let go of some hurt pain and over time you will heal.  Get on your knees and ask GOD into your heart.  It is only when we ask jesus into our heart that we really will trust him with our lifes.

"Are you someone who looks right on the outside
but have never accepted Christ as your Savior?
Make sure, in prayer to God, that you have Christ
in your life."  This is a quote that I read over and over again to remind me that I must have jesus in my life to guide me.  Also another on is this one following...

Title: It's Just Not Fair!

Author: Woodrow Kroll
Tony Beckett
Jeremiah 30-31, Philemon
Key Verse: Jeremiah 30:11

Breathes a child who has not at some time said,
"It's just not fair"? And that is only the
beginning of what he says. "How come I . . . ?"
is the follow-up question, drawing attention to
the perceived injustice. Actually, if "justice"
were left up to children, it would probably be
closer to "all of grace" rather than "fitting the
crime."

There probably were times when the Israelites
wanted to cry out, "It's just not fair!"  After
all, they were the people of God who had received
His blessings and promises. It just didn't make
sense that God would then punish them-especially
when other people were far more wicked, far more
deserving of judgment.

Through His prophet Jeremiah, God told the people
of Israel that they would not "go entirely
unpunished," but that He would correct them "with
justice." This was a "good news/bad news"
scenario. The bad news was punishment but the
good news was justice.

Sometimes when people adjust God to their
preference, they leave out the idea that He would
punish anyone for anything. They emphasize His
forgiveness and mercy to the extent that they
eliminate punishment and justice. That may be the
God of man's idea, but it is not the God of the
Bible. If this were true, there would be no need
for Jesus to have died.

God is the God of justice-and of mercy and grace.
So Jesus died, that we might live.

"I thank You, God, that You are the God of
justice and grace. Thank You for Jesus, who died
that I might live."

Might be pretty heavy stuff but all with good intentions sweety...

Yvette

aka sunny1

Lauren,

Thank you for sharing your poems, I think they ae very creative, and I can so relate to them and the pain I read.

I have a question, perhaps I am reading to much into all this, but I'd rather be safe than sorry.

Are you okay? The part about wanting to be with God, that really scared me,

Also, people do know how you feel, we do. Everyone at this site can relate to you!

Once again if I am reading too much into this, I am sorry, but I just had to ask.

Much Love,