every friday i go through the  same crappy nightmare. will he screw up again? i know with all the scary stuff i went through with amanda ,that i should relax. i went to sleep and woke up with such a migraine & i havent heard from my a since 1130:pm he said he would call me when he got to his moms.  he said he felt like drinking he had a crappy week. hello me too. but i deal with it . i would bet money on it  that he was out last night & didn't come home if that is the case then i have to move on. i can't live my life like this i deserve to be happy and so does my daughter. he will never tell me the truth. he is going to the dr. today for his blood pressure pill and he says he needs zanax .what does zanax do is that a legal way of getting high?its now 8:30 am  his phone was on a 7am and now its off:( so that leads me to believe that he is up to no good. i made my god bag and it worked for my daughter. i put all of my faith  in god and now i want to know if 1 he was faithful to me & 2 is he using again. i know that i cant control it and it kills me today i am gong to watch my daughter practice cheerleading. and relax if he calls he calls if he doesn't then i got my answer.

hugs chrissy

-- Edited by chrissy at 08:55, 2005-11-05

Hi Chrissy

 

You and your daughter deserve to be happy J very very true!

Xanax. This is an anti-stress pill. I was on antidepressants some years ago called Zoloft. Well additionally the DR prescribed xanax for me. This was to help with anxiety he said. I did not feel high, juts calmer and better able to handle the enormous stress in my life at that time

 

Faith in God, yes Chrissy, keep praying and you and your family are in my prayers today.

I am headed out to where I pray best, in the woods on my mountain bike.

 

Enjoy watching the cheerleading and TAKE CARE OF YOU and AMANDA J

 

In support

 

megan

Chrissy, a few months ago when I was going through the "Friday blues" someone on the board suggested that I make Friday "my day" so I start planning on Thursday what I will do on Friday.  Sometimes I stop at WalMart on my way home, then I come home, talk to the kids, crawl into my bed and watch a movie and/or crochet.  I may bake cookies or brownies.  Start owning Fridays for yourself.  Keep working the program.  Do you have the "Language of Letting Go"  it helps me a lot.  I also just got "one day at a time in Alanon"  I love it!

Try and remember, if you keep doing the same thing every Friday you will get the same results....try something different....let go and let your HP.....You are a strong person, believe in yourself.....

Hugs Mary

-- Edited by marmare at 12:09, 2005-11-05

thanks  megan & mary i don't feel very strong today i feel hopeless  & heart broken ,maybe that should be my knew name . he was doing so good or maybe he was fooling me all along i hate it that i can't trust him. i feel like such a fool

i am so worried about him too i let his hp take care of him

 

 

i put my worries in my god bag:)  i am going to focous on me & amanda tomorrow is home coming  i have to bake something maybe i make brownies or

now i am going to clean like a mad lady

(((((((((chrissy)))))))))),

Yes, trust your HP. Your HP is trustworthy. I to have a hard time trusting my "A", but Hp has never let me down.

I like Mary's idea of owning Friday. I have a meeting that I attend on Friday. I have to. It helps me get into an alanon state of mind and take the focus off of him and put it back on me.

Have you done something nice for you recently?

Much Love,

  ive been to busy doing stuff for amanda  but tomorrow i will enjoy. last night i went to my friends house for coffee that was nice

hugs

chrissy

i just want to say xanex is not a pill to get high. just because  it helps to ease anxieties doesnt mean you get high. i have been on it for a few years now and on an even smaller dose then what i started with. i have no dependence on it and dont misuse it. it is used to treat my panic attacks and without it i wouldnt be where i am now. i was a teenager when i first got panic disorder. couldnt go to school or anything. later on i was put on xanex to help me through these horrible moments. now i can control my panic with my mind majority of the time and take 0.25mg a day. which is extrememy small. even on my higher doses when i was younger, i never got high off of them. dont judge what you hear

thank you for the correct information  i really appreciate it.

hugs chrissy

Chrissy,

Xanax may be ok for normal people, but from my understanding it is on the list of drugs that alcoholics should not take. One of my roommates at rehab was suffering from major Xanax withdrawal and was in pretty bad shape. I think the dosage taken and the length of time taken are factors in this. Please find out more about this from someone qualified, it is quite common for us alcoholics to find substitutes for alcohol.

Lou