Hi everyone,

I broke it off tonite with this guy I had been seeing as I can't stand the rollercoaster any longer.  I have been so full of anxiety, fear, loneliness for the past year and I have had enough.  He had given me so much hope, told me to be patient, and that there would be a time for he and I...I am hurt as I trusted and believed in him...now I know that talk is cheap and I must heal from this day forward.  I also got laid off from my job so I am dealing with so much and today I had anxiety that would not quit.  I pray that God will help me through this.

I can't take the lies, rejection and empty promises anymore...I sat in on an AlAnon meeting tonite, got my thoughts together, and told him how I felt. He tried to throw it back in my lap and said that I was accusing him of lying..that just wasn't so~ guess the truth hit home..I had been avoiding talking to him about my deepest thoughts as I feared what would happen, but I remained calm and followed through with what my inner self was telling me. .

I had been supportive to him and feel he used me to get over his ex wife~~ just another way to avoid his alcohol addiction.  I am very proud of myself that I confronted him without getting mad, using bad language and without pointing fingers...I know I am making progress day by day and keep getting better. 

The last few times we had talked, he always brought up this woman....I told him I wished him the best....he wants to talk to me this weekend, but I dont' know if it is just another one of the alcoholic's games... Thank god for Caller ID

I feel better that I got this off my chest ..as I worry about having health problems as I did in my last relationship from all the stress.  Thanks for listening.. Gnite all ..Diane

Wish you luck on your journey.

Its hard to walk away from a comfort of what you know.  I too have been there, wanting to believe all the empty promises.  Be true to yourself.  If you believe in your heart that life is better moving forward then dont stop yourself from what can be.

God will not bring you to anything that he does not think you can not walk through.

Have faith that you will survive and you will.

Yvette

Hi Diane, Thanks for sharing what is going on.I can really relate to how you feel. It was nice to hear how you are working through it because I need to do the same. It's nice not to point fingers and blame. It's nice to talk about the situation for what it is. It's nice not to ignore it. Honestly brings me back to center, too. Thanks for sharing. Kristen

hi Daine,

I wish I had done the same thing years ago.  I stayed belived all the lies.  Your a smart girl best of luck

NIKKILOU

 

Hi Diane,

 

I read a book a few years ago called the Celestine Prophecy it talked about synchronicity in our lives and how we don't move on to the next step until we have learnt the lesson from this one.  I think the loss of your job will turn out to be a blessing in disguise also.  There are new begiinings for you here and you have learnt the lesson and are moving on.  What did you learn? To take care of you first.  Hang in there.  Luv Leo x

Isn't it wonderful that you can express yourself in an effective way!  I too am proud when I can do this.  Change is always hard, we each know how much we can handle, you sound like you reached your limit.  Hang in there, you are in my prayers.

Hugs Mary

I read recently (probably in a Cosmo) about differences in the male - female brain's.

Not to reiterate the entire article the one thing I wanted to share from it is this:  Men express their love through gestures...  the do things, actions.

We all know actions speak louder than words!

Congradulations on preserving & protecting yourself...  the longer you stay involved, it seems the more painful & difficult it is to get out!

-your friend in recovery

diane     GOOD girl, you took care of YOU....YOU are the most important one in your life.......i am so sorry you experienced this but gues what???? your inner child is jumpin for joy cause she KNOWS that  "big diane" is gonna take care of her/ protect her  and she won't act out so much as a result with stress, etc........

i hate to see relationships end, but i do support and i make no bones about it....i support break ups if there is.....    NO recovery program.........physical or verbal abuse..........actions not matching the words...........cheating..........substance abuse......there just is NO point!!!!!   i know AS i love me  AS i honur me  AS i respect me   i am  soooo turned off by these toxic people......i can pray for them,  feel compassion for them,   but to have one in my life??? messing up my recovery?????  taking ME down spiritually??????  hell no!!!!!! i want a healthy life..........i have had to dump people i hated to dump too.....they were not healthy for me.....thats a deal breaker to me...............you did GR8.....now give yourself a big hug and do something NICE FOR U!!!!!!     peace n prayers,  rosie

Sorry I missed that Leo, Yes i read the celestine prophecies too - & I agree, things keep getting worse until we deal with them & work them out -- kinda like graduating.

Ppl keep asking why we keep getting tested - I think HP wants to be sure we're not giving lip service but we are actually living our changes in attitudes & patterns.