ummmm i feel soo lost and alone... I feel as if I am just one person in the huge world. All I see is a dark tunnel, and no light shining through. I know I am alive on the outside because I am breathing, but my inside is dead.....

 

 

My Own Life

 

Living a lie is how I live

Trust no one unless an issue they give

I live in my own little world

I have been hurt more than you can imagine, or even care

People don’t understand, and look and me and just stare

I pray to my angel up above to take me home because I feel so alone

With all of my broken dreams and things never as they seem

Tears are running down I cry to God to please let me drown, and then I fly away

 

 

Lauren-Ash

 

 

 

 

Looking

 

I look into your dark hazel eyes and see nothing but pure evil and lies

I try to run but cannot hide

You know all that goes on inside

The smiles, the laughter, the joy, then suddenly turn to pain

I’m so ashamed

I cry out in a loud scream

Then I dream, and dream

I’m flying so high

Like a dragonfly

Lauren-ash

(((((((((((Lauren)))))))))))))),

You have a gift of writing.  I have been following your poetry and it's eerily beautiful but sad for me to read also.

I'd love for you to post what you are doing different from the past.  Do you attend Al Anon?  Do you go to meetings?  Do you attend meetings here online?  Do you have a special trusted friend you can talk to?  Do you attend counseling?

Know that I care and hope that as you begin to process all the pain, I will see some of your beautiful poetry that brings hope, sunshine and goodness.

The journey of 1,000 miles starts with a single step.

Keep coming and keep posting and know that we care.

yours in recovery,

Maria123

Hey Lauren,

 

I love your poetry and i am so glad you are continuing to write. I think that we need to do whatever we need to get it out of our heads what we are thinking inside, so we dont actually act on our thoughts. It is a way of journaling, am proud of you, i am glad you keep sharing your feelings. Keep it up ((((((hugs))))))) you are never alone hun remember that

 

 

kerry

Hi Lauren you don't need the angels to take you away from this world there is always a guardian angel sitting on your shoulder that you don't see.  Surrender to your higher power and if feeling really down ask Archangel Michael to protect you.  Luv Leo xxl