When we were obsessed with food, we were often obsessed with the past as well. We would rehash old hurts and resentments, old fears and desires. Our dreams, along with our waking hours, may have been filled with people from our past. Such preoccupation with the past prevented us from focusing on the present.
#####ROSIE....yeah for me it has been my *number* my *comforter* *filling in the holes of my life*.....now i am facing it dead on because i want to be free of it...all my *isms* for escaping/ numbing...i still do it!!! still am dealing with it!!! sometimes the pain of recovery gets to be too much and i get tired...i want to escape....i used to rehash the old crap too, i had to to discharge allthe old emotions, the old anger/rage/pain/hurt/outrage/grief....it was a bushel basket full of pain....i had to talk and talk, till i was DONE talking......now??? its about me/ the solution/ the CLOSURE of it that i focus on .......yes, i was pre-occupied with the past...STUCK in the past...until i could get all that discharged and now i want to focus on "what can i do NOW, to make my life better??"
By realizing that compulsive overeating is a nonstop trip back to the hurts of the past, we become more determined to maintain abstinence. If we are to be alive in the present, we need to let go of the past. What is over is over and cannot be replayed except in our minds.What we can do is turn our memories over to our Higher Power for healing. The creative Spirit, which is not bound by time, can take away old hurts and resentments. Then we are free to deal with the present and concentrate on doing God's will for us now, today. Living in the present keeps us in touch with the Power, which restores us to sanity.......May I remember that You are always now.
######ROSIE......for me?? compulsive *junking out* is my way of escaping...numbing....a temporary *comforting* that does NOT work....i have been good since i have been doing my "i love me" casettes and cd's.....loving myself better has caused me to want to eat better, drink more water, excercise more, rest more....that all helps......yes, the past i can LOOK at it without STARING at it.....its OVER!!!!! i had to walk though all the pain before i could do that and i am still entering grief cycles.....the loss , lost dreams/ lost hopes/ lost opportunities/ so much loss!!!!! but if i am to get ANY meaning in my life, i must i am focusing on the now and the solution!!!!! i am willing to turn over my bad memories to my HP........i know i am doing better at living in the present.....because that is my base for better tomorows.......... TODAY , i am turning over my hurt/pain/fear/grief to my HP, who resides within me!! thank you DONE
cdb said
Oct 31, 2005
Dear rosie,
How I wish I were at the spot you are at now. Thanks for sharing this post with me. It makes so much sense to me. Just the smell, touch, look fo certan foods is the comfort that helped us back then. How can we not resist when all we want is for the pain to go away? cdb
Accent on the Present
When we were obsessed with food, we were often obsessed with the past as well. We would rehash old hurts and resentments, old fears and desires. Our dreams, along with our waking hours, may have been filled with people from our past. Such preoccupation with the past prevented us from focusing on the present.
#####ROSIE....yeah for me it has been my *number* my *comforter* *filling in the holes of my life*.....now i am facing it dead on because i want to be free of it...all my *isms* for escaping/ numbing...i still do it!!! still am dealing with it!!! sometimes the pain of recovery gets to be too much and i get tired...i want to escape....i used to rehash the old crap too, i had to to discharge allthe old emotions, the old anger/rage/pain/hurt/outrage/grief....it was a bushel basket full of pain....i had to talk and talk, till i was DONE talking......now??? its about me/ the solution/ the CLOSURE of it that i focus on .......yes, i was pre-occupied with the past...STUCK in the past...until i could get all that discharged and now i want to focus on "what can i do NOW, to make my life better??"
By realizing that compulsive overeating is a nonstop trip back to the hurts of the past, we become more determined to maintain abstinence. If we are to be alive in the present, we need to let go of the past. What is over is over and cannot be replayed except in our minds.What we can do is turn our memories over to our Higher Power for healing. The creative Spirit, which is not bound by time, can take away old hurts and resentments. Then we are free to deal with the present and concentrate on doing God's will for us now, today. Living in the present keeps us in touch with the Power, which restores us to sanity.......May I remember that You are always now.
######ROSIE......for me?? compulsive *junking out* is my way of escaping...numbing....a temporary *comforting* that does NOT work....i have been good since i have been doing my "i love me" casettes and cd's.....loving myself better has caused me to want to eat better, drink more water, excercise more, rest more....that all helps......yes, the past i can LOOK at it without STARING at it.....its OVER!!!!! i had to walk though all the pain before i could do that and i am still entering grief cycles.....the loss , lost dreams/ lost hopes/ lost opportunities/ so much loss!!!!! but if i am to get ANY meaning in my life, i must i am focusing on the now and the solution!!!!! i am willing to turn over my bad memories to my HP........i know i am doing better at living in the present.....because that is my base for better tomorows.......... TODAY , i am turning over my hurt/pain/fear/grief to my HP, who resides within me!! thank you DONE
Dear rosie,
How I wish I were at the spot you are at now. Thanks for sharing this post with me. It makes so much sense to me. Just the smell, touch, look fo certan foods is the comfort that helped us back then. How can we not resist when all we want is for the pain to go away? cdb