Can You Feel My Pain?

 

 

I’m in my room lying on my bed

There are so many thoughts running through my head

I wipe the tears running down

I ask God why and frown

I go to my drawer and get the knife

God’s tells me please don’t take your life

I shut the door and close my eyes

Suddenly the knife is deep inside

With all the blood streaming down

I cry to God to please take my life

And then I drown

 

 

 

 

Lauren-Ashley

 

 

 

 

Darkness Surrounds Me

 

 

I sit here in complete darkness

Not a word is spoken

Silence is serene

I can hear the music of my heart

I am alive, but totally dead on the inside

Dark and dreary I am

I smile, but not of joy, but of pain

For my world is insane

I laugh because I cannot cry

All that runs through my head is the word goodbye

My pain has sucked the life out of me and now I’m ready to die

Then I sigh

No breathing, no sound

 

 

Lauren-Ashley

 

 

 

Crimson Red

 

Sweet crimson red

Being near to you makes the world look so dead

The pillow covering me… I gasp for air

Suddenly everything is bare

I am not living

My heart is drowning

 

 

Lauren- Ashley

 

 

 

 

Lauren you need to find some good in your life!! and soon!!!  You are too vibrant of a gal to think this way.  There are other ways to ask for help.  You are very articulate and capable of talking out your problems here or with counselors.  Lets turn that talent into a poem of a butterfly spreading it's wings.

Josey

yeah josey but its easier said than done. I am soo wrapped up in this dark world and cannot get out. I am going to therapy. I do write "good" poems to. I just want to kind of let it out soo write all the bad and get tired of it and heal...

 

lauren~

Thank you for sharing this with us, such openess.

Much Love

Lauren,

Hi my name is Julie.  I remember being where you are when I was about sixteen.  But I want to tell you just how brave you are.  For me I turned to drugs and alcohol for comfort.  And i am so proud of you for finding a safe place to open up and also for helping yourself in therapy.  Sometimes people do not understand depression in that it can envelope you in a blanket of pain and you literally cannot get yourself out from underneath it.  A child with your past has a lot to carry and you are doing the right thing by letting it out and finding help.  That is strength and wisdom beyond your years and I applaud you.  You are stronger than you know.  And I am praying for peace for you.  Thank you so much for sharing so honestly.

With love, Julie

lauren you share / write your little heart out.....that is the beginning of healing...i know, becuz i did it too.........hugs/ rosie