Its taken me 6 days to get here; but here I am . I decided that 'enough was enough' and finally took decisions in my own hands. I ultimately have the choice whether I can accept the current situation (living with an active 'a' or not) I chose the latter. I have moved my young family 1500 km away - it took 4 days for us to drive through the mountains to get here. This, by far has been the hardest thing I ever had to do. "letting go, and letting God' has been the resounding them since the beginning of this journey, and my HP has not failed me yet. Like a lamp on my feet, each step forward, just 'one at a time'.So, we are at a safe, far away place; it was so difficult to summon up the courage to go - I struggled so much with the thoughts of grief and dispair that my husband would feel. The old co-dependant, enabler in me. Starting my son in a new school, setting up a home, these are things that I never, ever imagined I would have to do. I am so eternally grateful for my HP, and for the support and prayers of so many others; my path was clear - and I had just enough courage to go through it. Now that its here - I know that each day the reality will set in, and so will the difficulties. I honestly pray that this will be the catalyst my family needs for whole restoration. I hope I am not being naive. Anyway - thanks to all who answered any of my previous posts, ALL the insight was so greatly appreciated!!
Affectionately yours,
Angie
canadianguy said
Oct 27, 2005
Glad to hear you arrived safely Angie, and you are so right.... you are at the start of a journey here, and who knows where it will end up? You made your choice with an honest and true conscience, which is a wonderful way to start...
I wish you well, and please keep posting....
Take care
Tom
megan said
Oct 27, 2005
Congratulations Angie
You have a great deal of courage to take back your life and protect yourself and your young family.
I left in May and it has been a difficult journey.
The rewards have been a closer relationship with family, friends and HP whom I call God.
Keep coming back
Megan
Karilynn said
Oct 27, 2005
Angie,
Oops this is the 3rd. time my cat has erased the post. "Meow, meow, meow" (She says she's sorry. But she needed tummy rubs first. ) First of all welcome to your new home. May it grow love, peace, and hope.
Making a huge change like this takes huges amounts of courage. Do you have any idea how strong you are? I am very proud of you. We're behind you all the way.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Kitty
leo said
Oct 27, 2005
Hi Ang,
That is huge what you have just done. I live approx 1300kms from my family so I can relate to the distance. I hope you have a lovely, peaceful transition to your new home. I am really proud of you. Luv Leo xxx
Diva said
Oct 27, 2005
I wish for much happiness for you and your family in the new home. Your courage is astounding. I commend your effort to take back your life and do what your HP intended. Three cheers...YAY! YAY! YAY!!! Diva
rosie light shines said
Oct 27, 2005
WOW!!! angie, that took guts and a lot of love for your family to do that..........i am proud of you.........rosie
browneyes said
Oct 27, 2005
Wow Angie
That took a lot of courage. I know because I did it before..... but I buckled under the pressure and i didn't have enough self-esteem to see it all the way through. I hope it is everything that you ever dreamed it could be for you and your children!!!!
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing. Stay strong and know what a great thing that you did!
With hope,
Julie d
nmike said
Oct 27, 2005
Angie,
Well, our HP's seem to have something else in mind for us. I live in the mountains and it is great. My story is a little different from yours but I just know that you will be having good experiences like me. My A moved out in June, our last son went to college, and I found myself all by myself. I have found out that I am competent. I have a brain. I have my own way of doing things. Friends help me. Strangers help me. If I ask I get even more help! And my A is not in touch with his feelings. He is very self centered.
Keep coming back to post and let us know your progress.
In support,
Nancy
Angie said
Nov 8, 2005
Wow!! Thank you to all who posted ! This has been such an encouraging board. I am doing well here, lots of changes, and challenges. Still drawing strength daily from my HP. Just one day at a time right?
Hi everybody -
Its taken me 6 days to get here; but here I am . I decided that 'enough was enough' and finally took decisions in my own hands. I ultimately have the choice whether I can accept the current situation (living with an active 'a' or not) I chose the latter. I have moved my young family 1500 km away - it took 4 days for us to drive through the mountains to get here. This, by far has been the hardest thing I ever had to do. "letting go, and letting God' has been the resounding them since the beginning of this journey, and my HP has not failed me yet. Like a lamp on my feet, each step forward, just 'one at a time'.So, we are at a safe, far away place; it was so difficult to summon up the courage to go - I struggled so much with the thoughts of grief and dispair that my husband would feel. The old co-dependant, enabler in me. Starting my son in a new school, setting up a home, these are things that I never, ever imagined I would have to do. I am so eternally grateful for my HP, and for the support and prayers of so many others; my path was clear - and I had just enough courage to go through it. Now that its here - I know that each day the reality will set in, and so will the difficulties. I honestly pray that this will be the catalyst my family needs for whole restoration. I hope I am not being naive. Anyway - thanks to all who answered any of my previous posts, ALL the insight was so greatly appreciated!!
Affectionately yours,
Angie
Glad to hear you arrived safely Angie, and you are so right.... you are at the start of a journey here, and who knows where it will end up? You made your choice with an honest and true conscience, which is a wonderful way to start...
I wish you well, and please keep posting....
Take care
Tom
Congratulations Angie
You have a great deal of courage to take back your life and protect yourself and your young family.
I left in May and it has been a difficult journey.
The rewards have been a closer relationship with family, friends and HP whom I call God.
Keep coming back
Megan
Hi Ang,
That is huge what you have just done. I live approx 1300kms from my family so I can relate to the distance. I hope you have a lovely, peaceful transition to your new home. I am really proud of you. Luv Leo xxx
Wow Angie
That took a lot of courage. I know because I did it before..... but I buckled under the pressure and i didn't have enough self-esteem to see it all the way through. I hope it is everything that you ever dreamed it could be for you and your children!!!!
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing. Stay strong and know what a great thing that you did!
With hope,
Julie d
Angie,
Well, our HP's seem to have something else in mind for us. I live in the mountains and it is great. My story is a little different from yours but I just know that you will be having good experiences like me. My A moved out in June, our last son went to college, and I found myself all by myself. I have found out that I am competent. I have a brain. I have my own way of doing things. Friends help me. Strangers help me. If I ask I get even more help! And my A is not in touch with his feelings. He is very self centered.
Keep coming back to post and let us know your progress.
In support,
Nancy
Wow!! Thank you to all who posted ! This has been such an encouraging board. I am doing well here, lots of changes, and challenges. Still drawing strength daily from my HP. Just one day at a time right?
ttfn
Ang