I'm new to these boards, this site was suggested to me by someone in a f2f al-anon group. I'm so glad she directed me here, I'm seeing more of myself as I go through all the posts.
Reading through the posts, I keep seeing "esh" mentioned. I've been struggling to figure out just what it stands for but cannot come to a conclusion. Someone mind helping me out?
On to my story, I'm engaged to a "recovering" A. We've been together for almost 2 years and have a 7 month old daughter. I'm attending f2f al-anon meetings which are really seeming to help. Just started reading "Codependency No More" today and already I'm seeing myself described to a "T". The A had the first relapse after 13 months the 24th of September and pulled another doozy October 1st. The cops were called because he was refusing to let me and the baby leave, my mother was on the cell phone and heard what was going on so she called. If not for al-anon, I don't think I would have had the courage to insist on leaving. Luckily, I'd just come home from a f2f meeting, had told at the meeting what was going on at the house and a gracious member offered for me and the baby to stay at their guest cabin if things weren't better when I got home. I honestly don't know what I would have done without that safe place to go to. I'm thankful because having him wake up alone the next afternoon seemed to have made him think a good bit. Now I just have to work on me and my program, despite the fact that he's not really working on his own.
I'm finding it really hard to let go of the pain dealt to me during his episodes. It was never physical pain, although things got broken, thrown, etc. I know it wasn't him, that it was the disease. But it doesn't seem to lessen the bad feeling it left me with. Hopefully, with me continuing on working my program, I can learn to let go of the resentments.
I've got the same screen name both here and over on the AA boards. He has been coming up with questions as he thinks about starting his steps, so I created an account over there first so he could ask his questions. Then I asked myself why I should seek help for him and not for myself, so that's when I came over here to join. So if you see FreeOfTheBottle over on the AA boards, it'll be me posting something for him. Over here, it's just me.
Thanks for listening, I hope to continue learning from all ya'll here.
megan said
Oct 25, 2005
Hi freeofthe bottle and welcome
ESH is experience strength and hope. What we share with each other along the road of recovery.
I am sorry that you’re a has relapsed. Relaspe is part of recovery and hopefully he will go back to not drinking.
Good work leaving the house when things got out of control.
Keep coming back, this board has helped my recovery a lot
In recovery
megan
leo said
Oct 25, 2005
Hi free of the bottle. I didn't know what ESH was either so thanks for posting that. I thought it must be an American term as I am Australian. Welcome to the board, everyone here is great it will feel like you have finally come home in some respects. By the way what does lol.. mean? Luv Leo x
Jeannie said
Oct 25, 2005
Hi and weclome,
I hope that by being here you and your husband can find a lot of help and strength. The people here are wonderful.
Love Jeannie
P.S. lol.. is short for laugh out loud.
nycbt said
Oct 26, 2005
WELCOME GLAD YOU ARE HERE. I go through the same thing with my husband. There are times he fights with me that I have to leave the house. I always have a place to go. My parents and so on. It always important to be safe. NEVER FORGET THAT ALWAYS BE SAFE!!
Hi ya'll,
I'm new to these boards, this site was suggested to me by someone in a f2f al-anon group. I'm so glad she directed me here, I'm seeing more of myself as I go through all the posts.
Reading through the posts, I keep seeing "esh" mentioned. I've been struggling to figure out just what it stands for but cannot come to a conclusion. Someone mind helping me out?
On to my story, I'm engaged to a "recovering" A. We've been together for almost 2 years and have a 7 month old daughter. I'm attending f2f al-anon meetings which are really seeming to help. Just started reading "Codependency No More" today and already I'm seeing myself described to a "T". The A had the first relapse after 13 months the 24th of September and pulled another doozy October 1st. The cops were called because he was refusing to let me and the baby leave, my mother was on the cell phone and heard what was going on so she called. If not for al-anon, I don't think I would have had the courage to insist on leaving. Luckily, I'd just come home from a f2f meeting, had told at the meeting what was going on at the house and a gracious member offered for me and the baby to stay at their guest cabin if things weren't better when I got home. I honestly don't know what I would have done without that safe place to go to. I'm thankful because having him wake up alone the next afternoon seemed to have made him think a good bit. Now I just have to work on me and my program, despite the fact that he's not really working on his own.
I'm finding it really hard to let go of the pain dealt to me during his episodes. It was never physical pain, although things got broken, thrown, etc. I know it wasn't him, that it was the disease. But it doesn't seem to lessen the bad feeling it left me with. Hopefully, with me continuing on working my program, I can learn to let go of the resentments.
I've got the same screen name both here and over on the AA boards. He has been coming up with questions as he thinks about starting his steps, so I created an account over there first so he could ask his questions. Then I asked myself why I should seek help for him and not for myself, so that's when I came over here to join. So if you see FreeOfTheBottle over on the AA boards, it'll be me posting something for him. Over here, it's just me.
Thanks for listening, I hope to continue learning from all ya'll here.
Hi freeofthe bottle and welcome
ESH is experience strength and hope. What we share with each other along the road of recovery.
I am sorry that you’re a has relapsed. Relaspe is part of recovery and hopefully he will go back to not drinking.
Good work leaving the house when things got out of control.
Keep coming back, this board has helped my recovery a lot
In recovery
megan
Hi and weclome,
I hope that by being here you and your husband can find a lot of help and strength. The people here are wonderful.
Love Jeannie
P.S. lol.. is short for laugh out loud.
WELCOME GLAD YOU ARE HERE. I go through the same thing with my husband. There are times he fights with me that I have to leave the house. I always have a place to go. My parents and so on. It always important to be safe. NEVER FORGET THAT ALWAYS BE SAFE!!