Hello everyone this is camra some of you know me from the chat room, I had a very bad day today and needed to just rant but have on one to talk to so here I go.
Can anyone tell me why the strong pick on the weak? Can anyone tell me why disabled people get discriminated agaisnt? This is my life one huge discrimination battle after another, if im not being picked on then its my son who is being picked on.
I feel like I am about to come ungluded, I know because of stress I am experiencing alot of difficulty in everyday life. most of the time I can't even think straight . I know I need to move , just get out of this town, because of all the things going on, but I just do not have the means of doing so.
And I Have started something that I must finish ! How can I let other peoples decide my futrue? NO ! I must not !!!!
But I am also worried of completley loseing it.
don't know what to do..
thanks camra (fitone)
kitty said
Oct 24, 2005
((((camra))))) hugs to you - sorry your day was so bad.
"And I Have started something that I must finish!" <-- this is an interesting quote/comment to me, I often say in my posts that we are answering our own questions... and ultimately no one but you can decide this for sure.
I have heard thousands of times that you cannot run from problems, they simply follow you or become exponentially worse until you face them directly.
"Can anyone tell me why the strong pick on the weak? Can anyone tell me why disabled people get discriminated agaisnt?" <-- After being abused I certainly know the answer to this on many levels... for one thing when other ppl are victimized & they can't deal with it, they internalize it, turn right around & act out on that which they swore they would nvr become -- ABUSERS.
It's like the ol saying... 'hurt people, hurt people' 'cause that is all they know. And so the cycle of abuse continues. Besides they were abused, why SHOULD THEY CHANGE?!!
Not only does it take great courage & willingness to want to identify & change one's self but it takes a lot of consistent hard work. Work that so few are able to accomplish. Facing our shame, our demons, so many ppl can nvr even face themselves, LET ALONE THE HURT THAT THEY HAVE CAUSED OTHERS.
Also, ppl that feel badly about themselves raise their own self-esteem by 'putting other's down' anyway they can. It gives them a quick reward but later they feel worse, even more remorseful for their behaviour so they act out even uglier than before... sinking to lower & lower levels.
The man I married (& divorced) was an addict & a relentless bully. The more love I gave, the more love from me he took, just like a parasitic vampire! I did try "killing him with kindness" but it nearly killed me, literally.
Well, that was my experience.
nycbt said
Oct 26, 2005
WELCOME GLAD U JOIN THIS FAMILY GROUP. Sorry though you are having a bad day. Life gets better as you work the program. It has for me.
Hello everyone this is camra some of you know me from the chat room, I had a very bad day today and needed to just rant but have on one to talk to so here I go.
Can anyone tell me why the strong pick on the weak? Can anyone tell me why disabled people get discriminated agaisnt? This is my life one huge discrimination battle after another, if im not being picked on then its my son who is being picked on.
I feel like I am about to come ungluded, I know because of stress I am experiencing alot of difficulty in everyday life. most of the time I can't even think straight . I know I need to move , just get out of this town, because of all the things going on, but I just do not have the means of doing so.
And I Have started something that I must finish ! How can I let other peoples decide my futrue? NO ! I must not !!!!
But I am also worried of completley loseing it.
don't know what to do..
thanks camra (fitone)
((((camra))))) hugs to you - sorry your day was so bad.
"And I Have started something that I must finish!" <-- this is an interesting quote/comment to me, I often say in my posts that we are answering our own questions... and ultimately no one but you can decide this for sure.
I have heard thousands of times that you cannot run from problems, they simply follow you or become exponentially worse until you face them directly.
"Can anyone tell me why the strong pick on the weak? Can anyone tell me why disabled people get discriminated agaisnt?" <-- After being abused I certainly know the answer to this on many levels... for one thing when other ppl are victimized & they can't deal with it, they internalize it, turn right around & act out on that which they swore they would nvr become -- ABUSERS.
It's like the ol saying... 'hurt people, hurt people' 'cause that is all they know. And so the cycle of abuse continues. Besides they were abused, why SHOULD THEY CHANGE?!!
Not only does it take great courage & willingness to want to identify & change one's self but it takes a lot of consistent hard work. Work that so few are able to accomplish. Facing our shame, our demons, so many ppl can nvr even face themselves, LET ALONE THE HURT THAT THEY HAVE CAUSED OTHERS.
Also, ppl that feel badly about themselves raise their own self-esteem by 'putting other's down' anyway they can. It gives them a quick reward but later they feel worse, even more remorseful for their behaviour so they act out even uglier than before... sinking to lower & lower levels.
The man I married (& divorced) was an addict & a relentless bully. The more love I gave, the more love from me he took, just like a parasitic vampire! I did try "killing him with kindness" but it nearly killed me, literally.
Well, that was my experience.
WELCOME GLAD U JOIN THIS FAMILY GROUP. Sorry though you are having a bad day. Life gets better as you work the program. It has for me.