Hi all. I have been reading a lot of the posts here on this site. I feel much better now, and also am more confident that I am doing the right thing for myself. I have just recycled my former marriage with my A, and we are now separated 'again'.
Seems like we were always 'separated' now that I look back over my years with him. Although I must say that we were together in "our" sickness when I was not in alanon; however, now that I have done so much work on myself, we are "no longer" together in healthy living.
As many of the posts that I have been reading said much of what I am going through, I don't feel so alone in my quest for peace and hope for myself and my A. He has many good qualities as most A's and Alanon's do; however, I am unwilling to continue living with untreated alcoholism. Although my A does not actively drink (been dry for 24 years), he needs to work his program seriously because the behaviors are still 'dry', and I am feeling trapped and depressed when I am with him physically.
Anyhow, I love this place and have been reminded of the love and acceptance that is in this program. I pray for all of us that we will continue to move forward with our HP as our guide on side side and the Program on the other.
XOXO, Scamper
captcodee said
Oct 12, 2005
Ya, we all like to know that we aren't the only crazy ones out there...
Your post sounds so serene, full of peace... I love to read those kinds of posts.
We are glad you are here, and welcome to the global family of alanon!
Seems like we were always 'separated' now that I look back over my years with him. Although I must say that we were together in "our" sickness when I was not in alanon; however, now that I have done so much work on myself, we are "no longer" together in healthy living.
As many of the posts that I have been reading said much of what I am going through, I don't feel so alone in my quest for peace and hope for myself and my A. He has many good qualities as most A's and Alanon's do; however, I am unwilling to continue living with untreated alcoholism. Although my A does not actively drink (been dry for 24 years), he needs to work his program seriously because the behaviors are still 'dry', and I am feeling trapped and depressed when I am with him physically.
Anyhow, I love this place and have been reminded of the love and acceptance that is in this program. I pray for all of us that we will continue to move forward with our HP as our guide on side side and the Program on the other.
XOXO, Scamper
Your post sounds so serene, full of peace... I love to read those kinds of posts.
We are glad you are here, and welcome to the global family of alanon!
Aron in the Mountains
(Captcodee)