Good call, on your part....  You sound like you are in crisis right now, and medical attention is certainly one option available to you.  I hope you can find someone you can share your fears with as well.... do you have a sponsor or counselor that you have faith in?

Tom

I am glad you decided to go see your doctor. Although , we are here to help those who are dealing with active addictions, we are not professionals by no means, and sometimes we need to get help additionally elsewhere. We are just normal folks brought together with a common bond, we are affected by anothers addictions. Alot of us seek other help as well, may it be through the clergy, councellors, or psychiatrists, and there is nothing wrong with that. We need to do what is right for ourselves, in seeking the peace and serenity we so desire. Take care of yourself , with whatever it takes to do so.       gardengal