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these tears i cry/of joy and pain/do fill my eye/with clear, salt rain

some want me out/of this room soon/i just hope not/twould be no boon

i wanted only to be loved/now find myself just pushed and shoved

i can't NOT cry/that would be worse/to cry alone is NOT a curse

i don't know which way to turn/there is maybe some concern

i broke a rule and paid with tears/not taking counsel of my fears

right now the times are very tough/amends just may not be enough

i sit here on 23rd/awaiting owner's further word

i am happy just to get this far/by bus or train or nice streetcar

if i must leave, so be it, all/for attacks i did not call

it's not public yet, you all; just much private vitriol

the tears are here/must let them be/just to keep my sanity

barred i may be/but i showed up/to fill my own and another's cup

what i do learn i then must teach/to keep the program within our reach

now i must go. my time is up. 

INFINITE GRATITUDE TO ALL...

haxi

 

 

 

 

 

 

(((((((((Haxi))))))))))

Keeping you close in prayer my dear friend and sending many warm, loving thoughts and hugs your way!   

Love in recovery - Jeri 

(((haxi))))

Beautifully written - I don't want u to leave - don't understand what u mean by that part.  I have learned much from you in a few meetings when you've been in them too.  What I see in the posts is you taking action, taking care of yourself, doing your part, working your part, being grateful.  I don't know you - but it looks like you moved to a new city alone.  I'd be in tears all the time if I did that.  I admire that courage.  Keep taking care of you.  I like to hear what you have to say.

Cedarpines

((((((((((((((((((((hax))))))))))))))))you cant leave we need your wisdom here :) I just want you to know you have been loved. You have helped me many times and i may not know how to show my thanks doesnt mean i am not grateful for your shares, I love your for bringing hope to  us and letting us know that we are not alone and that you have been where some of us have. Hold your head high pick yourself up dust off and on ya go, go after what you want out of life hax a new beginning dont sweat the small stuff as you would say ) I thank you for all that you have shared. I really do hope you do not leave this room. Talk to you soon love ya ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))

 

kerry

-- Edited by kerry5 at 21:50, 2005-10-04

{{{{Mike}}}},

dear friend, this too.

Thinking of you.

 

Tchee

My dear Haxi,

Things will be okay. Let go and Let God. He is there for you and will not abandon you just as I will not either. (((((((((haxi))))))) Everything will soon be fine. Keep having hope my friend. cdb

(((((Hax))))))

Cry those tears.  Feel your pain, but keep coming back.

You were there for me Hax, when I first came into MIP, when I was crying you put your hand on my shoulder and gave me love and hope.  All will be as it should be my friend.

We all make mistakes, do not dwell on them, dust them off of you and take what you can from them.

You are much loved and very much respected.

Infinite gratitude to you, Hax.  You are part of who I am and who I want to be.

David