Well, I guess I too have had my fill. After he came stumbling in past 3 this morning, we had some words. Not a lot as I soon remembered I was getting sucked in. This morning I got ready to do some errands and asked him what his plans were the weekend, he said why? I said we need to talk, he said okay....then I looked at him and realized I don't even know this man anymore. I simply said....you have to go. He said okay, made a phone call and after I left, he moved his things out. The emotional roller coaster today is tough, but I will be okay. I know for the time being this is what "I" need. I would rather worry about how to pay bills then to live in the insane eviorment I have been living.
Hugs Mary
Powerless said
Oct 1, 2005
I admire your strength. It is sometimes hard to know what to do and even more difficult to follow through. IT sounds as if you did what was right for you at the time. I hope it works out well. I also hope that you find yourself strengthened and find peace. I envy you that he left so easily.
debilyn said
Oct 1, 2005
Mary, Yes i know the roller coaster, that horrible pain you feel inside.
I hope you can take care of you. It will ease up in time, with work. The chat room helps
a lot at night when it is the worst.
Everything is worse when you are tired. I found if I felt the pain and stayed in the
moment it was better each day.
I hope you have some times of serenity.
Love,debilyn
bcanuck said
Oct 2, 2005
Mary
Now what? You will get on with your life and take care of you. It will be different, perhaps hard at times, but it is what is best for you. I envy you too.
Take care and keep us posted on your progress, we care.
browneyes said
Oct 2, 2005
Dang Mary
I too envy you!!! I wish it was that easy for my husband to leave. But I know that it is still hard for you. I hope you are ok. You are just doing what you need right now. You are in my prayers
Love Julie D
nycbt said
Oct 3, 2005
Wow I wish I am as strong as you are. RIght now I am dealing with it in hope that he will see the light and get help. He was in the program for six months and now he isn't going to any program. The only thing that is helping a little is his paxil.
Well, I guess I too have had my fill. After he came stumbling in past 3 this morning, we had some words. Not a lot as I soon remembered I was getting sucked in. This morning I got ready to do some errands and asked him what his plans were the weekend, he said why? I said we need to talk, he said okay....then I looked at him and realized I don't even know this man anymore. I simply said....you have to go. He said okay, made a phone call and after I left, he moved his things out. The emotional roller coaster today is tough, but I will be okay. I know for the time being this is what "I" need. I would rather worry about how to pay bills then to live in the insane eviorment I have been living.
Hugs Mary
Mary
Now what? You will get on with your life and take care of you. It will be different, perhaps hard at times, but it is what is best for you. I envy you too.
Take care and keep us posted on your progress, we care.
Dang Mary
I too envy you!!! I wish it was that easy for my husband to leave. But I know that it is still hard for you. I hope you are ok. You are just doing what you need right now. You are in my prayers
Love Julie D