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I'm sorry for being such a wet blanket this weekend.  I now understand what's going on and there is nothin I can do about it. It's called complex grief. The losses have come so fast and there has been so much additional crap that I haven't had the time to grieve em.

There is much wounded-ness in me that needs healing and I'm truly fragile right now. I've been bullied all my life, and this cousin's bullying was just what i didn't need. It's re-traumatizing me and slowing down my recovery. Wanna bet I'll be crying some more soon? Put money on it!!

I had to have his help because my records from all the therapy I got as a minor were sealed, as minors had no rights then. So I couldn't have gotten to em even if I wanted to.

On a positive note, please look for redmartha1 on board or in chat and make her feel welcome. I know her personally.

infinite gratitude to all...

haxi

 

(((((Haxi))))) Just wanted to give you a hug and wish you well. I'll watch for your friend :) Christy

good to hear from you haxi. Hey some of the temp work places pay each day. Did you know that? My A has been doing some stuff since he cannot work constantly becuz he is so ill. Any news on an apt. or? It is cold at night hax are you ok? Do you have a wool blanket? Feather things? Oregon can get very cold hax. Last winter was mild. But we have had a lot of snow before, and lotsa low temps. do you have a plan for when it gets colder? Well as usual I am being too curious. Care about you hax. Did ya get your storage and bus pass? love,debilyn

Hi ((((Haxi)))),

Just wanted to send you a big hug and let you know I am keeping you in my prayers as always.  Keep taking good care of YOU!

I, too, will keep an eye out for your friend and make her feel welcome.

Love in recovery - Jeri