Yesterday was a good night. That is sad that I have to say that. I hate having to worry that each day he might be drinking and giving me a hard time. He said yesterday that he is going to go to a meeting, but today when I see it I will believe it. I am trying to have faith but unless he walks in the door of the aa meeting I will not believe. When it reaches 10:00 at night and I know that the liquor stores or close then that is when I can relax. That is sad but true I worry all the up to that point I know there is nothing I can do about what he does but I don't want him coming in a yelling at me and giving me a hard time.

I am glad though this time I am not alone and I have people that I here for me. I got a sponsor this time and a best friend (Megan) that has helped me. I will try and think minute by minute that I there is nothing I can do. But I am still nervous.

((((nycbt)))))

I am so sory that you are going through this. I am glad that you have a sponsor and megan to help you.

I will pray that your A finds his way to AA again.

I have you in my thoughs.

JJ

((((((((((((NYCBT))))))))))),

Sorry that you are having a bad time, but sounds like you are doing a good job of leaning on people, keep it up.

Much Love,