I thought i was having a pretty good day today but maybe I was just fooling myself. 

Anyway, I can acknowledge my pain without having to be miserable but I've done it for so long, I really have such a long way to go. I need to try to be patient with myself & not expect to change everything over night.

I guess I'll be struggling for the rest of my life & just saying that makes the tears come...  why is it so hard to be human? 

Kitty, I am sorry you are in such pain. All of us here have experienced it or are experiencing it, but that does not make it one bit easier for you to bear. If a hug will help, here it is...((((((((((((((((kitty)))))))))))))))). You'll be feeling better soon. Hang in there. With caring, Diva

((((((((((((((((Kitty))))))))))))) I have found the best thing to do is go through the pain. Not avoid it or go around it but go through it. I admire you for going through your pain and reaching out for support to help you. Stay with us and we will be here for you. It does get better. xoxoxo cdb

((((((((((((((Kitty))))))))))))))))

When we are hurting, the best thing we can do is just to ride it out. Tommorrow is a new day and hopefully you will be feeling much better.

Lots of love and be patient with yourself.

                          Love Jeannie

Awww Kitty, I'm so sorry you are hurting. Just remember, we are here for you Hon. We all understand. Have a real good cry, sob, get it out of there. There will be better days, I promise, sending you lots of TLC.

((((((((((((((((((((Kitty))))))))))))))))))))))))),

I have been there as well. I know I will be there again (My "A" is still using). You are doing what you need to do, you're reaching out! And by letting us help you, we help ourselves, thank you.

I just read your topic and cringed inside for you. This disease causes such horrible feelings and our bodies take it all in and hurt too. I remember the horrible anxiety I did not think would ever go away. That heaviness, the doom feeling. Will never forget looking out to the South mountains and surrendering to hp. Just humbling myself and letting it all go. It took a long time, but after awhile I felt and live The surrendering all the time. I sortof take a deep breath and breath out the pain. When I would feel that horrible pain in my gut, I would remember to let go, give it to hp. I know it is easier said than done. But I promise, in time it really does work. Ya have to keep going, keep letting the pain go. Do what you can each day. Talk to hp all the time. If you can rest, do so. This pain takes so much out of us. I am so sorry you hurt. let people love you, it will help. keep coming here and letting it out. much love,debilyn

Dear Kitty

I can soooo relate.  I too have a long way to go and want recovery from it all now!!!!!!!!!

I try to remember " One day at a Time" & Serenity Prayer.

God Bless you

Yours in Recovery

Kathy570

Dearest Kitty,

Thanks for your post. Pain and tears is the beginning of healing. I remember a time when things were so crazy that I had no feelings.... only numbness. A time of chaos and insainity. Be gentle with yourself. Be patient. Learn to love you. Work on you , you are worth it.

Love & God Bless

lildee