7th Stwp Prayer

from page 76 of the AA Big Book

My Creator, I am now willing that you should have all of me, good & bad.  I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character which stand in the way of my usefulness to You & my fellows.  Grant me strength as I go out from here, to do your bidding. Amen.

I am a recovering A since Oct 15, 2001.  I will continue to post & share things from my AA program that helps me, along with Al Anon,  deal with my active A hubby.

I hope that no one has a problem with this.  I just want to share with other Al Anon members words that help & guide me in my Al Anon program also.  I do know that in meeting we are to stick to Al Anon topics.  For me, these words help me & only enhance my program here.

I feel that I have come along way in a short time and feel that it is because I am willing to read & try to understand anything that enhances my Al Anon program.

I hope that you will get as much out of these postings as I do.  God Bless.

Yours in recovery

Kathy570

Dear Kathy, As far as I am concerned, you are more than welcome here!! Sometimes, maybe you can give your opinion from both sides of the 'fence', for lack of a better word. I'm kinda in a daze today. My A has gone on a binge to his cottage. I guess I'm not supposed to give ultamatims, but I did. I'm really sliding in my program, and I know I have to really get off my butt and work on me. I guess I got lazy when things were going well. Now. I have to start at the beginning again and work harder at my recovery.

 I'm not hurt that he's gone. Guess I'm kinda relieved. One boundary that I strictly enforce is that I don't want him anywhere near me when he's drinking.(after violence a couple years ago) This is his 3rd time in one week. The 1st. I tried to ignore, the 2nd, he started getting nasty and I slept on the couch. Yesterday, I told him he'd have to sleep in the camper because I was not giving up the compfort of my bed. He crossed the line, and I wasn't going to sleep on the couch again with a bad back.

Last summer was the first summer in the 8 years we've been together that he didn't go to his cottage on a binge. We went on our 1st vacation and had a wonderful summer.Sigh

He has been extreemly selfish lately and been taking me for granted even more than usual. I guess I knew what was coming. I have been thinking a lot lately that I would like to get control of my own life again. I guess, deep down, that I dont want him to come back. I won't go back on that roller coaster!! Now, I am praying for the strength to stick to my boundaries, for ME.

I feel that you know and understand Alcoholism much better than I possibly could, and that you will be an enrichment to our recovery. Keep coming back, Love TLC

PS The topic of teens on this board was brought up awhile ago. I personally think they are more than welcome here, as we could see what they go through, and could help each other too. I think it would help us understand what our own children are going through.

-- Edited by TLC2 at 12:20, 2005-08-06

Hello Kathy,

I certainly don't have a problem with you sharing. That is what the message board is for :) What you shared both here and below sure has helped me already. Thanks for caring enough to post to help us. cdb

Kathy,

If anyone has a problem with you being here, it is theirs to deal with. 

Al-Anon is for family and friends of anyone whose life has been affected by alcohol.  Where you have been before is of no concern.

Thanks for being here  :)

Christy

Sun Aug 7

THANK YOU ALL for your support.  I will continue to post AA items that help me in Al Anon as both have been life savers to me.

I will post with the Topic " Both Sides of the Fence"

Hope it helps other members as much as me.

Yours in Recovery

Kathy570

 

I welcome you just as AA and NA welcome me as an al-anonic at there meetings!  We are all in this together, do the 12s tep boogie! With 2 left feet. - josey